Live On!

Dear my little sister,

2012-02-11T11:38:00.000Z

Salam.

Chin up my dear sister, everything is gonna be fine *hugs* :)

There will always be a time in life, where people will stop doing what they're doing and think, 'am I actually doing the right thing in my life? Did I make the right decision?'

and that always happen to me, dear sister :)

I've always wondering if what I have now will only bring tears instead of joy, if this will only lasts when I am a student and not anymore in my adulthood life. I am scared to think what's waiting for me, coz only He knows.

"It's always too early to say that 'I'M QUITTING'. and it should never cross in your mind in the first place." That's what I always think.

The reality is, we're not perfect. We have emotions. We have passions and we have ambitions. But, we have HIM for sure. So look up for Him when you feel down. Surround yourself with positive people. If there's one thing that could make you feel bad, then leave it. Leave it even though you'll feel all alone. Don't worry, Allah is there for you, remember? :)

Always think about what you have rather than what you don't have. Allah gave you an easy path to be in where you are now. So be grateful and always welcome challenges :)

When I really step into the real world of engineering, I was clueless. I never like anything about machine, I never like anything about materials. What I knew back then was only how to decorate a house, how to sketch, draw and colour, how to organize your home, and how to design a house plan. I was so passionate about doing this thing. and in a blink, everything was gone and I felt like I was in a total opposite world. The world seems odd to me, and I felt like I was a stranger. It was the downside of life.

But hey, should we just stop and blame Him? Not right?

You have your friends to help you, you have your family who believes in you, and most importantly, although I could not help you a lot coz my brain has become an engineer's brain in total, but I'll be there for you to help you go through this.

Ummi must be really proud of you now, you know? She told me one day, "Ummi selalu teringin nak ada anak seorang arkitek".

When I think about it again, I would cry coz I could not make her dreams come true. But now I know, you are now there to make her happy, to make her proud of you :)

So when you're feeling down, always think about Baba and Ummi who are already proud of you, of your improvements, of your capabilities and of yourself! Make them your inspirations. Always imagine them when you feel like quitting. Always always look up for them when you feel like you don't have anything. They have done a lot for us, so it's time for us to give them the happiness that they should get. We might not wealthy in money, but we have the happiness. So make full use of it, ok dear sister? :)

and to me, I BELIEVE IN YOU. and I promise, when I got back in summer, or anytime in the future, I'll help you. I'll help you to face this, to do your works, to make you a stronger person. This might be bias to Akak, Wawa, Amal and Adik, but you know you're doing something I would love to help anytime, so dont worry, Kak Ieda is here :)

Lastly, believe in yourself. Life is hard, you see. So it's normal to feel exhausted and to feel like the world is against you. But Allah is there for you. Recite the Al-Quran when you feel alone, and perhaps every single day. It will make you stronger and calmer to face the challenges. Be ready to face whatever that might come along the way, and never stop praying for Allah to ease your way.

InsyaAllah, everything is gonna be fine.

Love you a lot H,

Kak Ieda :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Spring Semester 2012

2012-02-06T09:23:00.000Z

Salam.

So my exam ended on Saturday,
and I got my one day holiday on Sunday,

and here I am, alhamdulillah on Monday, to start my new semester.
The third-last semester! Can't wait to end it fast fast fast ;)

Wish me luck. Bismillah :)

p/s: We got snow just right after our exam ended. What a beautiful way to celebrate freedom! updates soon :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Goodbye January 2012

2012-01-31T20:36:00.000Z

Salam.

My January was spent with notes and lecture slides, tutorials and past years examination papers. Nonetheless, it was awesome. Alhamdulillah. A month passed by, 11 more waiting for us in 2012 insyaAllah :) Here are some photos I took and posted on my Instagram. Would be happy to share some of it here :)

Two more papers to go. Wish me luck and may Allah bless you :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

About me and him

2012-01-26T14:58:00.001Z

Salam.

Whenever I feel sad, down and bad, I will always put myself in my dad's situation. Why? Because he's the person who changed my mind, the person who always motivates me no matter what.

He's an engineer. I wonder how he made it till he graduated. Amazing! and at the age of 21, he decided that he's ready enough so he got married with Ummi. What a huge responsibility to carry but he did it amazingly. I know about how hard he worked to give us a comfortable life to live in. His working experiences were amazing. and he sure has bigger responsibilities than me. and why did I never stop whining? I salute you Ba, seriously I do.

The mens in my life. Soon to be added more. Husband. Brother in laws. Nephews. phew :p

"Tak sabar nak raya kat rumah sendiri satu hari nanti. Nanti sebelum raya boleh bakar lemang kat belakang rumah dengan menantu-menantu, lepas tu main dengan cucu2. Korang semua (referring to the daughters) tolong ummi masak kat dapur" (Baba, 2011)

Sweet kan Baba saya ni? <3

You're my world's greatest dad, indeed :)

Saw these photos of his actions at work. He's incredibly a great leader, I must say masyaAllah. Whatever he do, he does it with his optimum efforts. He is my truly closest inspiration! His motivating and inspiring words and his acts, subhanallah, syukur alhamdulillah ya Allah that I have my Baba!

Courtesy of 'Kawan Baba' (Facebook tagged photos) :p

and when I showed him my presentation videos, he said:

"Wow! Alhamdulillah .... Baba dah tengok dah video tu. HEBAT!!! That's my daughter. I just can't wait that one day you'll present papers at international conferences. Baba baru jer balik dari Indoor Air Quality International Conference. Ramailah Mech Engrs yg present paper pasal HVAC system. Terharu plak dah tengok Ieda present dengan British accent (ada lah sikit2 ... Hehe)" (Baba, 2010)

He's expecting me to become a good engineer too! What a huge challenge but it will be worth to try right? That's why I MUST NEVER GIVE UP! and of course behind a great leader there's a powerful woman, which is Ummi <3

I must never disappoint Baba and Ummi, and I must work very hard.

"Ya Allah, peliharalah mereka seperti mana mereka memelihara ku sejak kecil. Berkatilah kehidupan seharian mereka. Berikanlah kesihatan yang terbaik kepada mereka. and Kurniakanlah rezeki dan kebahagiaan kepada mereka dan kami sekeluarga dunia dan akhirat"

Allah... Beratnya rasa. Aku rindu mereka semua di Malaysia. Ketika aku bermusafir ini, ketika mereka jauh, ketika aku tidak dapat memeluk cium mereka dengan kasih sayang, Kau Lindungilah mereka.. Kau lindungilah mereka tanpa henti. Semoga mereka di Malaysia bahagia..

rindu. rindu teramat.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Autumn Semester 2010/2011

2012-01-24T08:46:00.000Z

Salam.

Mohon doa untuk saya dan kawan-kawan. Hari ni start exam insyaAllah :)

24th Jan: Sensors, Actuators & Controllers

25th Jan: Integrity of Materials and Components

2nd Feb: Advance Thermodynamics Cycles

4th Feb: Engineering Management

Semoga usaha yang dah dibuat diberkati-Nya. Kepada sesiapa yg saya ada buat salah silap, mohon dimaafkan. Dan doakan saya berjaya selalu.

Bismillah. Moga berjaya semua biiznillah :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Muhasabah #8

2012-01-17T16:06:00.000Z

Salam.

I've mentioned the above phrases that can be found in Al-Quran before. But this digital one is a lot better, don't you think so? :)

So spread the loves, use it as your desktop wallpaper. Upload in FB, twitter, or anywhere, and share it with everyone. Let everyone know that Allah is the best of judges after all! :)

Check out the rest of our project here --> LINK

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Do things you like

2012-01-16T08:13:00.003Z

Salam.

I learnt in life, we have to do what we like to do, what interest us. Life will be even happier and better. However, I also learnt that, doing something you dislike, and you were forced to do it, although your life with be full of tears, it will teach you A LOT more about life from day to day.

So first, #1 Do things you like

and secondly, if you didn't get the chance to do #1, don't fret, because it is a better way to ~~make you look stronger~~ learn more about your capabilities and to know yourself better.

So #2, Welcome Challenges and Be strong!

I just never want to see anyone ever suffer like I do. I know I am strong and I always believe I can do it, so if you don't, please think wisely before you make a decision. Please, life was hard and I hope no one will ever feel the same as me again.

Heart says: Mechanical engineering is hard, can anyone pat my shoulder please?

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Being a pre-adult is scary

2012-01-14T14:27:00.003Z

Salam.

We're already in the middle of January, and that made me stop studying for a while and wonder how time flies so fast. I remember the other day I was thinking how silly I was by being a kid, seek for problems at such early age made me wanna become an adult as fast as I can. But seeing how adult life is full with responsibilities and expectation, that made me nervous. What will my life be when I am no longer a student? I am lucky enough to have such a good sponsor (thank you MARA) to give me monthly allowance. With the money, I used them to pay expensive rents and bills okay :p But, later upon graduation, I have to work and earn those money on my own. I can already feel the heat when I have to search for the best company to let me do internship on my own. Have to save money because the rent is too expensive. Also have to cut down expenses and manage my own life. No one will ever give me monthly allowance anymore *sigh* That made me wanna become a kid or a student forever.

However, I am excited to see how thing goes in days ahead. If I don't have rezeki to do a summer internship during my holidays, I'll do part time job or maybe craft business i.e. handmade bag making again? Are you serious? Of course la I need to get either a good job/business or find the most valuable experience while I can. I am graduating next year, insyaAllah. phew, that's scary to think but exciting too! what a relief I can finally say that :)

Being a pre-adult is scary. You are confused about whether going to adulthood fast or just staying where you are, or you just have no idea at all. Life as a student to me is fun but tiring, but some said being an adult is way more tiring! For real, I'm entering the adulthood soon and I'm as scary as anybody else is. Yes, life will be more challenging soon and I'm pretty sure I'm gonna miss my days being a teenager.

But life has to go on but I'm more than happy to accept challenges, with smiles and tears! Because Allah has planned an awesome journey for us since we were in mommy's womb lagi, so what we should do? Work for it and believe in Him. He's the best of all :) oh, not to forget, live life to its fullest and grab as many as experience you can too!

I think I'll have to pen off. 9 days to final exam.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Challenging Myself

2012-01-10T17:57:00.000Z

Salam.

Hi hello there! Help! I'm struggling!! haha.. It's been quite a while since I last spend some time with my dear blog. I've been busy revising (last minute study, as always....) for my upcoming examinations on 24th January 2012. That is like in 2 weeks time. Wish me luck!

However, I'd like to thank you guys for showering me with positive comments on my previous entries. I'm glad in a way Allah gave me the ideas to write. If not, then I will not be writing this at the moment right. Somehow, I'm not motivating anyone. It's YOU who motivate me to become a better person. I'm so in love with myself (not narcissism!) that I've been happier than before. Alhamdulillah :)

Because of that, I'd like to treat myself with some simple challenges. For this year, I'd like to put higher aims in what to achieve in my life.

Becoming 22 in 7 months, I so wanna make full use of my time to discover what have not been discovered and to teach myself to be brave in trying something new! Right, I am a person who dislike changes in life. Somehow, if not change now, then when? Right? :)

There's this few words to be taken seriously this year.

Colourful

Istiqamah (Consistent)

Happy

I chose colourful because I will always stick to my favourite colours. If pink, then pink all the way. If red, yes everything will be in red. I want to bring more colours to my life! I want to change my style too :p (no high hopes in this, I'm just a simple girl). As a kick start, my new blue handbag just arrived today! yippie! :p

Istiqamah, as I said before, I want to appreciate the value of consistency in my life more i.e. in religion, studies, career, and life management. InsyaAllah, let see how this one goes. I'm not putting high hopes coz I am quite a procrastinator sometimes -.- But, worth trying right? InsyaAllah Allah will help!

and finally, I hope 2012 will bring much more joy and happiness to me, my family and yourself (readers!). I want to be a happier person. I want to carve more smiles for people around me. InsyaAllah ;)

Let's work this out, Syaheeda! Bismillahhirahmannirrahim! :)

(p/s: it's 10th January, how time flies fast right?)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

I Believe

2012-01-08T10:46:00.000Z

Salam.

Try listen to this song while reading the lyrics. Subhanallah very calming and sweet messages :)

I Believe (LYRICS)

When you're searching for the light
And you see no hope in sight
Be sure and have no doubt
He's always close to you

He's the one who knows you best
He knows what's in your heart
You'll find your peace at last
If you just have faith in Him

You're always in my heart and mind
Your name is mentioned every day
I'll follow you no matter what
My biggest wish is to see you one day

Chorus:
I believe
I believe
Do you believe, oh do you believe?

Coz I believe
In a man who used to be
So full of love and harmony
He fought for peace and liberty
And never would he hurt anything
He was a mercy for mankind
A teacher till the end of time
No creature could be compared to him
So full of light and blessings

You're always in my heart and mind
Your name is mentioned every day
I'll follow you no matter what
If God wills we'll meet one day

Chorus

If you lose your way
Believe in a better day
Trials will come
But surely they will fade away
If you just believe
What is plain to see
Just open your heart
And let His love flow through

I believe I believe, I believe I believe
And now I feel my heart is at peace

Chorus

I believe I believe, I believe I believe

******

Seriously, if you have a doubt or anything, just find it in Al-Quran:

‎"Wahai manusia! Sungguh, pelajaran (Al-Quran) telah datang kepadamu dari Tuhanmu, penyembuh bagi penyakit yang ada dalam dada, dan petunjuk serta rahmat bagi orang yang beriman." (Surah Yunus, 10:57)

And if you ever doubt with yourself, just seek for guidance from Him. InsyaAllah Allah will show the right way for you to do it. Allah knows best, remember? :)

‎"Dan ikutilah apa yang diwahyukan kepadamu, dan bersabarlah hingga Allah memberi keputusan. Dialah hakim yang terbaik" (10:109)

Semoga terus bersemangat meneruskan hidup! May Allah bless you :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Muhasabah #7

2012-01-04T15:58:00.001Z

Kepada semua yang ada exam! :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Motivations

2012-01-02T00:37:00.002Z

Salam.

warning: entri panjang.

Alhamdulillah. Jejak jugak kita 2012. Syukur alhamdulillah. syukur! :)

I'm tired from studying so I thought why not write something right. So today, I'll write about motivations. I've always wanted to write about this, but it was so hard to find a time :p

When I was studying just now, I got a message on facebook from my friend (you know who you are).

"syaheeda sorry saya mengganggu, but i have something to ask you..how you keep urself motivated?? not harmed by others?"

I smiled :)

Yesterday a friend told me that she commented on one of my entries. so I eagerly checked on it. What I found was a lovely comment,

"objection! the part that u said u wont give any benefit to others.. i just want u to know, that when im down, i'll look up for something positive, n ur blog is in the list ;) so keep writing syeeda, the postive one. smoga Allah redha insyaAllah ^^"

So I smiled too :)

Let me get this straight, I am like the weakest person ever! ever! ever! Seriously, jentik pon boleh jatuh okay :') What you saw in me through my writings, that might be the shield I always put on coz I just want to look good in front of everyone. hahaha, no harm, but that's the truth. Siapa taknak show the best, xkan lah nak tunjuk keburukan kita kan :p

I remember last January 2011, I kept on posting new status(s) on Facebook, telling the world how I hate my life, how bad life is treating me, how screwed I am in engineering. Until one day I called my dad, I was complaining about my studies, my life, and suddenly he told me, 'CUBA POSITIVE SIKIT, ASYIK CAKAP PERKARA NEGATIF JE, STATUS SEMUA NAK NEGATIF JE, MANA NAK HAPPY?!' :( I cried in silence, really.

Since then I kept asking myself, 'am I that negative?'

Only. ALLAH. knows.

Selama 21 tahun hidup ni, I've had too much already. Takda masalah, cari masalah. Name it, I gained a lot of new friends and also enemies. Being the good girl also the bad girl. Results teruk? Pernah je. Cikgu benci? Pon jugak.. Kawan2 tak suka? Pon sama jugak..

and then I had my turning point when I knew I just have to be myself, which is a good girl. Sampai bila nak jadi budak nakal, right? For me, my turning point is someone. So I worked really really hard to be as good as that someone. It worked for me. Results naik. Dah tak berapa jahat macam sebelum tu. Dan alhamdulillah, people started to look at me (not like I want them to do so, tp maksudnye kat sini diorang tahu I've changed).

Bila fikir balik, masyaAllah, how did I do that really? Because YOU CREATE THE INSPIRATIONS, which then MOTIVATES YOU to become better. I am lucky that Allah let me know this person. I am so inspired by this person and I've always set my goals, which is to beat that person, let say in exams. Although for once, I finally beat that person :) Coz I always said, 'I wanna catch you from behind'. For once, I really proud of myself :)

How do I deal with insecurities? You tell me, I don't know. Seriously, that will be the hardest question ever. I dealt with insecurities like every second in my life. Life has its ups and downs, face it. We can't really ignore the truth and create our own lies. Sometimes, I feel like life is treating me badly, and sometimes, I feel like I am loser. Sometimes I think I am stupid. Sometimes I think I am this, that. and sometimes, I just can't run away from my past. When I saw people staring at me, I thought they think I'm ugly. When people just ignored me when I was talking, 2 seconds later I concluded that I am a boring person. When people don't care about me, I thought nobody loves me :( sedih kan?

You are what you think you are! Baba pernah pesan kat kitorang adik-beradik :) Yes, we are what we think we are. Kalau kita fikir kita bodoh, bodohlah kita. Kalau kita fikir kita boleh, boleh lah kita.

For those who doesn't know, I wanted to be an architect so badly but knowing going overseas will be so much more fun, so I stupidly chose engineering programme and here I am now, doing Mechanical engineering. haha!

Making decision is like throwing a dice, and there I was, facing the biggest challenge soon after I decided my path. It was 2008 and the hardest year for me. Why would I let go my ambitions just to go overseas??! why oh why? I can't really get over that question until recently, alhamdulillah :)

It took me years to realize, Allah planned this for me beautifully. Although it might not as what I thought when I was 17, but it is what He wants me to do. He wants me to go to Sheffield and find what I should find. Alhamdulillah, I got what He meant. Well, that's another story to tell :p

I can cope engineering in Malaysia, honestly. But in the UK? urghhh -.- I find it as the biggest, the hardest, the impossible-est challenge ever for me!! When I first arrived here, I was living alone in university hall, trying so hard to be independent. All by myself. Tapi time tu jiwa rasa kosong. Hidup rasa kucar kacir. Assignments! Culture shock! British-accent-shock! what else? I was so tired of my life. I cried almost every single night, hating my life again :(

I remember there was this one night, I cried so badly after solat Isyak. I was praying to Allah to make my life easier coz it was really hard for me that moment. Try baca Al-Quran lepastu. Guess what? I cried even more badly because I can't recite Al-Quran properly. Bila fikir balik, yes, It was quite a long time since I last recite Al-Quran :( and then the other night I tried again, and still, baca teruk gila :( and with the challenges i'm facing, rasa nak meletup dada ni sakit menangis pada Dia :'( Sayu bila ingat balik....

Since then, I know I have to fix things right. There's a hole in my heart that needs to be filled with good things. I need to be strong. I need to trust Him, for He has better plan for us. He knows better than we are. I need to be close to Him. I need to baca Al-Quran selalu :')

Chin up! I said to myself. I tried to think positively. I kept telling myself that it's okay to cry.. But make sure to smile when I woke up the next day. I told myself to be strong! To not over-thinking. To not post negative status ever again on facebook. To shower others with positive vibes from me. To share with people my experiences. To motivate others through my experiences.

When I can't, I do what I love to do. Take pictures, cook, write or membebel. I did all that. See my wall was full with motivational words! and I love it :)

Life is getting better from day to day, subhanallah, alhamdulillah :) I'm really happy with my life now. Truth is I don't really remember my past now coz I love being myself now. No hatred, full with love. InsyaAllah :)

How do I really be so motivated (maybe only in my writings, hehe)? Maybe because my life was so bitter in the past that I want to change it better. Yes, from bitter to better to best to excellent and to superior. MasyaAllah, only Allah knows how I want to only live in happy modes. But I am a girl with PMS, remember? We can't really ignore the hormonal imbalances that made our day miserable at least a day in a month :p (i secretly wished that PMS never exist, really :p)

Things I noticed were, I smiled more, I got angry less, and I love myself and my life more :) Alhamdulillah.. When there were days I felt so gloomy, I kept on thinking of happy things. Befriend with people who will make your day happier, not sebaliknya. and befriend with those who can teach you right things, not sebaliknya. My housemates, they are masyaAllah, sangat motivated. So I secretly made them as my inspirations. Yes, you got my point there. Create your inspirations and get motivated! :)

Apa-apa pon, always put trust on Allah. I realized that when you're close to Him, you'll be better insyaAllah. Baca Al-Quran selalu, insyaAllah hati akan tenang :)

Recently something happened that made me cry days and nights. Even dalam kelas pon mata duk berair-air. balik rumah je, nangis balik. Tapi bila baca Al-Quran, memang rasa kuat sangat. Rasa ada sesuatu yang tarik kita dari jatuh, ada sesuatu yang sangat2 berkuasa. Alhamdulillah, I got better in times. I trust Him for everything that happened, ada reasons nya yang tersendiri.

One last thing that made me feel so motivated to move on with my life is, my family <3 I love them so much that I want to show that I am happy here. Lagi-lagi ummi and Baba.. :) I know, it's not easy to raise 6 children with them being so busy with works. They worked really hard to make us happy. So takkan la nak call semata dari UK then nangis2 bagitau sedih itu ini? Now I know why Baba sangat marah bila asyik letak status sedih2 :') It's like killing their happiness, kan? I love them more than anything. I wouldn't trade anything for them.

Baba and Ummi trust me that I can do engineering, and alhamdulillah coz I put trust in myself too, last summer, I finally able to let go perasaan tak rela buat engineering ni and sekarang semangat nak teruskan perjuangan ni! I need to finish what I've started. Now is 2012, so.......... tahun depan grad insyaAllah!!!! :D Can't wait for July 2013 to arrive ;)

Actually, it all started from within yourself. If you think you can do it, then you can. If you think the other way around, then you'll get what you expected. PUT TRUST IN ALLAH, as He owns our heart, our mind and our soul. He knows better than we are. Tipulah kalau kita tak ada rasa sedih langsung kan bila2? I do feel sad sometimes.. Rasa down teramat, and at one point, you have to stop letting yourself drown in your sadness! Layan satu malam cukup lah, esok kena bangun happy and lupakan apa yang terjadi. Kalau susah pon, takpe. Things will get better in time. Trust yourself. Walaupun tak boleh, try sampai boleh! Surround yourself with positive people. Sedut segala perkara baik dalam diri tu! InsyaAllah, Allah akan tolong kita kalau kita betul2 nak. InsyaAllah :)

Nak clarify jugak kat sini, I am not as good as what some of you might think actually. I try to write in positive modes, as to motivate myself je sebenarnya. Bila kita rasa down, tak semestinya kita tulis dalam mood down. Boleh je tulis sesuatu yg kita harapkan. Alhamdulillah if what I wrote can help some of you as well, I'm really glad about that :)

Dah lewat dah ni, mata dah kuyu. I think I need my precious sleep. Esok kena sambung study lagi :)

Thank you kalau baca entri yg panjang gila ni. hehe. I pray that Allah will ease your way in every single thing that you do. Tapi make sure buat perkara baik je okay. May Allah bless you ;)

Yang baik datang dari Allah, yang buruk tu dari saya sendiri. Wallahualam.

p/s: sorry kalau macam tunggang-langgang, dah lama tak menulis macam ni -.-

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Quick Review of 2011

2011-12-31T19:53:00.000Z

Salam.

Before 2011 really ends here in the UK, I would want to review back my 2011 :)

January 2011

- Wasn't a good beginning as I was super duper busy catching up with my studies. I must say it was the hardest phase as a new Malaysian student in the UK. Alhamdulillah made it with first class for my first semester.

- Sheffield was all white, me like it! (snow January, no snow December 2011 T____T)

- Someone came to visit me in the UK :)

February 2011

- Quick trip to Birmingham

- Started my spring semester :)

March 2011

- Nothing special in particular, really busy with assignments.

- Netball FTW! Won over Postgraduates and Brunei Society :)

April 2011

- Made my first sushi! hahaha

- Went to IRELAND! subhanallah a great place :)

May 2011

- Make and Break, haha. it was fun btw :)

- Not so much done on May, EXAM MODE!! -.-

June 2011

- Successfully completed 30 Days Photography Challenge! :)

- MALAYSIA!! Joyyyyy, alhamdulillah :)

July 2011

- Being 21 years old. Alhamdulillah :)

- Watched my first football match live: Arsenal VS Harimau Malaya.

August 2011

- Ramadhan. All about baking and cooking and baking and cooking :p

- Marked a memorable day 210811: a step closer to my aim. Alhamdulillah :)

September 2011

- Raya all the way, bulat all the way jugak -.-

- Went back to Sheffield -.-

October 2011

- Moved into our new crib: Lu'Lu'! :)

- Can't remember the details. too occupied with responsibilities -.-

November 2011

- Nottingham Games 2011

- Same, too occupied. no details -.-

December 2011

- ITALY! Definitely the best so far :p

Alhamdulillah, syukur ya Allah. 2011 has been great for me. Day to day, I feel like, now I understand my true responsibilities more. I know, I write less. But hey, that's life. You lose some, you gain some. While I'm not writing, I achieved so much more. Tapi what I achieved tu indescribable la, macam the skills I gained, the experiences. I always wanted to write about them and inspire more people who like to be inspired. But I just don't know how to manage both. haa! that's one thing I should take note for 2012 lah kan, right? ;)

Anyway, bunch of thank you(s) for those who are still following my perkembangan hidup. Ye, cik penulis pon dah kembang. haha. Alhamdulillah sangat I can still keep up with this blog, although not that frequent anymore. Hey, I gotta do what I gotta do, remember? hehe :)

For days and years to come, don't expect mushy stuffs coming up coz I'll probably retire from doing that now, InsyaAllah. Reasons? mehh, no need reasons when that is the right thing to do. ahaa, not until I got married la kot kan :p hihi.. (DOAKAN PLEASE, caps maksudnye desperate sgt perlukan doa semua :p)

and please for those who know about my journey, I just want you to pray for the best for me. I want to graduate with flying colours, to be married to a nice guy and to live happily, insyaAllah :)

As cliche as it is, I've got my new year resolution too. I've got few on the list but we can just ignore the few. Only simple one. But this resolution is the HARDEST thing to do. I may or might not able to achieve this. But I do hope that I will be able to be do this.I's not a choice by the way, it's because I HAVE TO, WE HAVE TO. I want to change and become a better person in time.

I just want to be ISTIQAMAH in everything I do.

May Allah ease everything for me and do pray for me. :)

Happy new year 2012 <3

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Doa Favourite :)

2011-12-30T09:41:00.000Z

Salam.

Ni merupakan satu line dari Al-Mathurat yang masyaAllah, setiap kali baca pasti terpujuk hati yang sedih. I think why not I share it here kan dari membebel perkara x membawa manfaat :p

اَللَّهُمَّ إِنّىْ أَعُوْذُبِكَ مِنَ الْهَمِّ وَالْحَزَنِ

وَأَعُوْذُبِكَ مِنَ الْعَجْزِوَالْكَسَلِ

وأَعُوْذُبِكَ مِنَ الْجُبْنِ وَالْبُخْلِ

وَأَعُوْذُبِكَ مِنْ غَلَبَةِ الدَّيْنِ وَقَهْرِالرِّجَالِ

"Allahumma, aku berlindung pada-Mu dari rasa sedih dan gelisah,

dan aku berlindung pada-Mu dari kelemahan dan kemalasan;

dan aku berlindung padaMu dari sikap pengecut dan bakhil;

dan aku berlindung pada-Mu dari cengkaman hutang dan penindasan orang."

Alhamdulillah.. Masih lagi kita dipinjamkan nyawa oleh Allah.. Moga hidupnya kita atas muka bumi ni dapat lah kita jalankan tanggungjawab kita sebagai khalifah dan abid (beribadah kpd Allah)

Saya nak minta maaf kepada semua pembaca saya andai kata sebelum ni penulisan saya membawa kepada kelalaian serta penambahan dosa selama ni T_T

saya akan cuba untuk tidak menulis yg bukan2 dah sebab teringat kawan tulis status kat facebook, dia share gambar di bawah. InsyaAllah :) wallahualam..

Andai kata saya salah, tegurlah (dengan cara yg baik dan sopan). Andai kata saya terlencong sini-sana, tariklah tangan saya ni menuju ke jalan yang lurus. Dah meningkat dewasa, jiwa pon harus dewasa, InsyaAllah :)

Regards:

Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali

- sent from my iphone

mereka

2011-12-29T09:35:00.000Z

Salam

alalala habis cute la tu :p

rindunyeeeeeee kt ummi dan baba.. this picture was taken at their recent trip to Terengganu. I was born and raised there for a year and i know nothing about that place. Only went to Terengganu once on 2004/2005/2006 and now when I wasn't at home la diorang pergi lagi! cissss.. cemburu gila! Jadi I cropped my sisters in the picture. HAHA!

Apepon, today is lil sister birthday Haneesah. May Allah bless you Cah :)

Baba kate 'nothing compared to Italy' but I disagreed. I think, nothing compared to the love of the real bonding, and nothing compared to the quality time spent with family. I was away from home since 13 years old and I always wanted to be with my family! Time summer aritu tak pergi mana2 :( Apepon im happy for them. Nak pergi jalan2 jugak summer ni!!

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Muhasabah #6

2011-12-28T09:56:00.000Z

Salam.

Rezeki itu datang dari Allah, tapi kita sendiri kena berusaha untuk dapatkannya. Sebab Allah dah janji, siapa yang berusaha dan bertawakkal setelah berusaha, pasti kelak akan menerima ganjarannya. InsyaAllah :)

p/s: 27 days to final exam! Berusaha Syaheeda, berusaha! :D

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

No regrets...

2011-12-27T09:36:00.000Z

Salam.

Just something to share:

"people, do what you really love to do. because you know when you have that thing in your heart, nobody can ever make you fall. when you love what you do, nothing can ever stop you. and although there may be many stumbles, you'll never stop getting back up because you will never give up the thing you love, ever.

and lastly, be proud of what you do, engineering and accounting let me tell you, is not an easy thing. so when people doubt you for that, you tell them," i'm never gonna stop until i make it to the finish line, and who are you to question my dream?"

embrace your greatness, believe in your awesomeness and appreciate your hardwork and don't always be too hard on yourself.

GO BIG OR GO HOME
no regrets"

( T, 2011 )

Exams in a month! and I need this. thank you to this person who wrote this (you know who you are). I have no idea how to start and hopefully this will be a baby step for me. Too late to look back and start over, so I NEED TO FINISH UP WHAT I'VE STARTED! :)

to my dear friend T,

Sorry that I didn't drop by to say hi, you know I've been so busy lately. Sorry :( By the way, Congratulations on your recent graduation! Looking forward to see you soon, if not in the UK but in Malaysia for sure. I love you like a lot! :D take care love and i miss u too!

Feel blessed in a way Allah gave me a friend like her :)

Lots of Love : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Last winter, my picture was there...

2011-12-24T22:59:00.000Z

.....This winter, I was there :)

Alhamdulillah ya Allah for giving me this opportunity to see the undiscovered side of world. Alhamdulillah..

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Travel: Italy 2011

2011-12-24T22:18:00.001Z

Salam.

Alhamdulillah. I just got back from Italy. A 7-days trip. Alhamdulillah, it was a blast! With awesome friends along, I must say that the trip was the best that I had experienced ever. I wanted to write a long entry with full descriptions of our trip. But I got exams in a month. So I'll try to update whenever I can.

For now, let us see the pictures :)

Milan

Pisa

Florence

Rome

Venice

Yup, we met Yuna in Venice. Terjumpa time on the way nak balik hotel. It was nice meeting her. We wanted to see her in Rome but we couldn't. Tak sangka dapat jumpa in Venice :)

apepon I must say I love Venice most! then florence.. ahhh.. I got some connection with lake/sea/river. Serius rasa calming gila kat tempat2 ni. Alhamdulillah jugak cuaca for the whole trip sunny, so that made the trip more interesting, pictures more beautiful! :) Would want to see Italy again, with my family, insyaAllah one day :)

Tak nak balik Sheffield and face the reality. but i have to! Now, I'm back, gambar pon dah upload siap2 kat facebook. I will write another entry with details of our trip insyaAllah. Not sure when, but I will try ;p

I miss italy. Seriously. Arrivederci Italia, ti amo.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Winter Getaway

2011-12-16T00:38:00.001Z

Salam.

16-23 Dec 2011 - Will be away from Sheffield for a week! Time to have some fun with ma girls ;)

*all pics credit to google*

Can't wait! May Allah smooth our journey, insyaAllah ;)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Muhasabah #5

2011-12-14T20:30:00.000Z

Salam.

Allah sangat hebat kan? Tanpa Dia, tiadalah langit, tiadalah bumi, tiadalah awan, tiadalah matahari.. Tanpa Allah, tiadalah kita. Dari Dia kita datang, dan kepada Dia juga kita akan dikembalikan. Maka kenapa harus kita berpaling? Allah Maha Besar, Allah Maha Agung :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

For some reasons...

2011-12-11T12:22:00.001Z

Salam.

For some reasons, I am not able to continue writing as frequent as I was before. I will write, and will never stop. It's just that, I should prioritize my responsibilities first.

For some reasons, I might not be able to answer your questions that popped in my email or facebook inbox. Same reason as the above point, deeply sorry about this. However I will try to do my best to be fair to everyone.

For some reasons, I started to choose certain entry from my archive, and make them private. There are some private entries that required password. Only special people will have the password. Or maybe, just me only. This is nothing to do with haters or anything, it's just that I think it is the best time to start keeping the past only to myself. Also thought of deleting some useless entries as well, but that will be done some time later when I'm a bit free. When the right time comes, the public may sees it insyaAllah :)

I miss blogging and writing has been a part of myself since 3 years ago. It's just that, I realized there are a lot more that I should do than wasting my time writing stuffs that wont give benefit to myself, and to everyone else. I will continue writing to share my precious experiences and to motivate those who has been in the same boat with me, or maybe just shared the same feelings as me. I will not stop, coz I know writing is a medium to express, share and enjoy. InsyaAllah :)

To those whom I haven't replied their comments on certain entries, I will, InsyaAllah someday. Lemme finish my workloads first ya! :D

Something to share before I pen off:

"Never EXPECT. Never ASSUME. Never ASK.

and never DEMAND.

JUST LET IT BE!

If it's meant to be,

IT WILL HAPPEN".

When you expect less, you won't get mad easily, you wont get frustrated easily and you wont be crying easily. Trust me. It works, Insyaallah :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Muhasabah #4

2011-12-11T11:27:00.000Z

Subhanallah! :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

nota pendek

2011-12-10T19:50:00.002Z

Salam.

A week to end Autumn semester. Tinggal 3 semester je lagi before graduation insyaAllah!! okay I am seriously exhausted tapi takpe, Allah ada untuk tolong kita. InsyaAllah :)

Ok back to work. Jaga iman, jaga amal. Jom sama2 improve diri insyaAllah :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Muhasabah #3

2011-11-28T21:27:00.002Z

Something to ponder :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Memories

2011-11-25T22:09:00.000Z

Salam.

Hari ni dah dapat jadual exam. Kali ni ada 4 papers je, 24 Jan, 25 Jan, 2 Feb ngan 4 Feb. But honestly, tak prepare langsung. It's week 10 next week, and I haven't done any tutorials, except 1. What have I done for the whole semester, really??? :/

Still finding the 'semangat' to start the revisions.. So tadi baca balik entry2 lama, all the struggles I've been through last semester which made me cry T____T Where on earth did I got the courage to face this life? I'm so proud of myself.. T___T

Really, life was harder but this time was the hardest. Juggling around with responsibilities, assignments and studies, I just couldn't find any time for me to complete all tasks. But there were a lot of free times for me, which I wasted it with excuses to reward myself after all the hard works. I should have been studying during those free times... LIKE NOW! -.-

I'll start the revision tomorrow.. I'll do my works and I'll make sure I perform my responsibilities.. I don't want to give excuses.. coz, I couldn't bear to feel the same like I felt last semester. My results are not good enough to secure my 'first class' title. If I dont perform well in the upcoming exam, I'll drop to 'second upper' which I don't want! I want good grades with my own effort and with precious experiences!

On top of that, I just wanna be a better person. To myself, to my family, to my friends, and to Allah. I've been trying hard to be fair to everyone and to be fair to own life.

InsyaAllah *trying really really hard*

However, those memories are precious. I'm glad I jot everything down in my blog. See how I abandoned my blog this semester? It is how I exactly thought in the first place. I'm sorry dear blog, I'm just..... trying too hard to get everything done perfectly, just like how I want it to be :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

University of The Year!

2011-11-25T12:08:00.000Z

Salam.

This is one of my proudest moment for being a student at The University of Sheffield! :)

The University of Sheffield has been awarded as the 'University of the Year' at THE awards. Couldn't agree more! Sheffield is the best XD

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Muhasabah #2

2011-11-24T17:31:00.000Z

Salam.

Kalau tiba-tiba rasa lemah, ingatlah Dia.. :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Teach yourself

2011-11-22T09:44:00.000Z

Salam.

Shared via my beloved lecturer.

I wanna teach myself not to ask why all of this happen to me, but try to accept everything as a challenge instead. No easy things in life, no free experiences in life. Go for it, it won't wait for u.

Let's live this life to the fullest. Even the deepest pain cannot be compared with the happiness that is waiting for you ahead. Why this happen? Why it happen to me? Because Allah always knows best, He got better plan for you.

"Bila Allah cepat makbulkan Doamu, Maka DIA Menyayangimu,
Bila DIA Lambat Makbulkan doamu, Maka DIA Ingin Mengujimu,
Bila DIA Tidak Makbulkan Doamu, Maka Dia Merancang Sesuatu Yang lebih Baik Untukmu.
Oleh itu, Sentiasalah Bersangka Baik Pada ALLAH Dalam Apa Jua Keadaan Pun... Kerana Kasih sayang ALLAH Itu Mendahului KemurkaanNya."

Forget all sadness and Let's smile reading this, okay? :)

Have a nice day people. May Allah bless you always. InsyaAllah ♥

p/s: woke up to a text reminding me to smile throughout the day. Alhamdulillah :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

She's the one.

2011-11-21T18:19:00.000Z

Salam.

As quoted from Proudduck.com,

"If there are any young teens reading this, please take this advice; choose your friends. It’s so scary to read all sorts of crazy wild things happening in this world, and I really think one of the factors is peer pressure.

Choose the friend who tells you to calm down when you’re mad, the friend who thinks good things of your enemies and tells you to soften your heart, the friend who tells you to work harder, the friend who respects your parents, the friend who leaves the prayer mat open to signal it’s your turn, the friend who has held your hand for the longest time and never judged you."

-Proudduck 2011-

and I'm glad that I have her :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

i wonder..

2011-11-17T18:46:00.001Z

Salam.

Rindu nya zaman 2nd year ada masa nak layan YouTube lagi2 tengok gelagat Jorge, Alexa dengan Eliana. Rindu zaman 2nd year ada masa terlapang nak tulis blog, blogwalking dan buat photography challenge. Rindunya masa bila boleh masak, baking dan shopping.

Tapi 3rd year lagi best sebab baru lah rasa hidup ni ada tujuan, jadi nak merepek2 banyak tu, memang tak ada masa la. Simple things came in the second, and more important stuffs always the first. Dah tak ada masa nak main2 macam dulu. Diri sendiri pon getting older, sampai bila nak jadi macam budak-budak. Sampai bila hidup nak membazir masa je. Sampai bila nak bersikap endah tak endah pada masa depan?

Kalau sampai bila2 takda vision yang betul, sampai tu lah hidup kita jadi camtu je. Tak ke mana pon. Bila diberi tanggungjawab, lakukan dengan bagus. Jangan sekadar nak dapat nama. Jangan sekadar suka-suka. Jangan sekadar cukuplah sekadar ada.

Mentaliti manusia susah nak ubah. Tak perlu lah nak ubah orang kalau diri sendiri tak boleh nak berubah. You cant lead people if you yourself dont have the right path to take in life. So far alhamdulillah rasanya boleh lagi perform tanggungjawab yang diberi. Kecuali dua perkara:

Tanggungjawab terhadap study - tutorials, assignments dan self revision. Rasa bersalah sangat bila orang lain dah nak siap kerja, kita masih terkapai2 sebab waktu yang ada kita kejarkan tanggungjawab yg lain.Yang utama ni, ke laut. Yang kedua adalah, tanggungjawab kepada agama. Yang ni, memang susah nak buat. Kena jugak paksa buat! Paksa hati! paksa jiwa! paksa diri! ya Allah, berdosanya aku :(

Tapi kalau kita tak buat langkah pertama, sampai bila kita nak mula bertanggungjawab. Kalau setakat dapat superior achievement dalam studies, awards dan involvement dalam CV bukan main panjang lebar. Tapi kalau hubungan dengan Allah tak jaga, camne Allah nak redha apa yang kita buat?

bersungguh-sungguh kita berusaha untuk fulfill expectation manusia yang hina, tapi kita macam tu kah pada Sang Pencipta, Allah yang Maha Agung?

Muhasabah diri.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Muhasabah #1

2011-11-16T14:36:00.001Z

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Season of Love

2011-11-08T15:32:00.000Z

Salam.

Autumn, November 2011.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Salam Perantauan Aidiladha 2011

2011-11-06T23:55:00.000Z

Salam.

Kami pelajar-pelajar tahun ketiga Jurusan Kejuruteraan Kimia dan Mekanikal di University of Sheffield United Kingdom ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha kepada keluarga di Selangor, Negeri Sembilan dan Perak. Rayo di perantauan jolah tahun ni. Eid Mubarak!

Yours truly; Afiqah Nordin, Amiratul Hasanah, Izzati Ellyani, Syahirah Muzakir dan Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali

p/s: mock salam perantauan :p

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

AidilAdha 2011

2011-11-06T23:10:00.000Z

Salam.

I remember when I was younger, my family and I used to go back to my Baba's side kampung which is at Lenggong, Perak. When we were kids, we got pretty excited and scared too watching the cows got slaughtered (is this a proper word to be used?). All the bloods and the cows' aggressiveness. I'll just stand behind anyone but will always be there, never missed the Qurban. I'll join uncles and aunties weighing the meats and packed them in plastic bags to be given to orang2 kampung. I felt like a butcher already! Life goes on and I grew up, I didn't really got the chance to help my aunties. The boys took over my place (annoyed) -.- But it's okay...

I remember my arwah aunty, Teh taught me how to weigh the meats, pack them, and even how to cut them. I miss her.. Al-Fatihah. When she was sick, the family no longer do the Qurban at kampung and since almost all my Baba's siblings live in Ipoh, we just do the Qurban at Ipoh. Now that she passed away, nobody lives in the house at my kampung and her family moved to Ipoh as well. and I wonder what happen to that house? It's been a while......

My typical Aidiladha was very simple. I didn't wear kurungs since I eagerly wanted to be the butcher of the day. If I wore kurungs, I'll just wear previous year Aidilfitri kurungs, not the special one. I didn't get to wear new kurungs, not in my family tradition. My aidilfitri was a lot glorious than Aidiladha, always.

How about the celebration in the UK? The first time was exciting eventhough I had classes at 11am that raya day last year. Woke up early and wore my baju raya, went to Muslim Walfare House for solat raya and at 11am went to class. Took some pretty photos with the guys and girls in lecture hall and since its autumn, we thought it was perfect to capture the moments when we were wearing kurungs and baju Melayu. After that, straight away to friends' open house. Everything was perfect for first time celebrating Aidiladha overseas. Wow, its amazing that I remember that. Sweet memories are not to be forgotten, aren't they? :')

And this year happened to be my 2nd time celebrating Aidiladha here. It was a decent celebration with friends and Malaysian community in Sheffield. The feeling was a lot better than last year albeit I miss everyone at home. Because the celebration here was a lot joyous, the sisters went house to house for takbir and I got to takbir after subuh with my housemates on raya morning. One of them cried and that made me wanna cry too!

I miss my family, really2 much. Its been hard for my family this past couple of months, and I know Baba and Ummi have been so strong to face the challenges. and it's been harder for me to know that I am not able to be there with them. Not a single tear on Aidiladha last year, but today I cried a lot. I miss my family. I love them a lot more than yesterday. I know tomorrow its going to be greater. The love grows every single day. True that being far away taught you how to be strong. and that is the good side of living overseas. You got to know the true meaning of life. When we were reciting takbir together after Subuh berjemaah, I imagined the faces that I miss a lot. Subhanallah. Allah gave me wonderful people around me, including my housemates! I don't know if I chose to live with other people, will I get the chance to experience this? Alhamdulillah :)

and the weather was lovely too! Autumn with fallen brownish leaves, blue sky, and fluffy clouds - and just perfect with my beautiful friends :) I just had the best so called 'break from busy-ness' with my girls.. I got to forget all my works and enjoy the day to the fullest. Alhamdulillah :)

Alhamdulillah, it was a truly blessed Aidiladha. Good foods, great companies, wonderful day.

Housemates: Me, Afiqah, Athirah, Izzati (m.i.a Naz)

Pretty girls are everywhere!

I am here coz I'm gonna be an engineer one day, InsyaAllah :)

Refreshing niat. New day coming tomorrow, should make the best out of it. InsyaAllah. Must work harder! Must push myself to give my best and pay back what my family and country deserve to get from me. It's not a promise that I will be super excellent but I'll do my best, with all my might. InsyaAllah :)

Happy Aidiladha people. Eid Mubarak! :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

unexpected entry

2011-11-03T22:30:00.000Z

Salam.

Hello my dear bloggie that I misssssss... aaaahhhh feels so nice having MY TIME to write something. Eventhough this one is going to be a crap. I should never make any promises, coz life is unexpectedly full with surprises. err, well u should expect that anyway :p

I must say, 3rd year is my most busy year! The busiest ever ever ever! Even to call my parents is a hard thing to do (tambah lagi connection x berapa elok in my room), apetah lagi to write something in my blog! I didnt expect anyone to miss my writings, but I do miss my own babbles! warghhh.. I do that everytime and annoyed my followers on Twitter. ngeh2

I've been doing good so far. Alhamdulillah. Still trying to maintain my momentum. Well, its week 6 of semester. Another 6 to end it. Time flew like the speed of sound! Tak sedar tinggal 1.75 tahun je lagi nak grad! Hopefully to graduate as MASTERS IN MECHANICAL ENGINEERING!

Something to share with those who have been following me from the very beginning. I am happy that Allah finally let the light seeps in my future. Alhamdulillah.. When I took this course rasa macam susah gila nak hidupppp apa menda machine and stuffs ni. After years being exposed to the world of engineering, after pergi career fair, and dah belajar banyak kan, tiba2 rasa hati ni dah SEDIKIT yakin. hikhik, malu nye dah 3rd year baru yakin :p Tapi, takpelah! Baby steps, people say! :)

There are a lot of career opportunities for Mechanical Engineers! Out of 10 companies, I must say there will be 8 chances that there will be a place for a Mechanical Engineer. InsyaAllah.. When I told someone I just want to belajar, kawen, and jadi suri rumah coz I'll be an excellent housewife insyaAllah :p Tapi, dia tak bagi.. hahhaa okay2 itu tak masuk topik. Its just that, explore more and you'll get more. Kawan2 banyak tolong gak explain itu ini..

One thing yg buat saya confident ialah, how Allah will always show me that no matter I feel like giving up, I'll always get things I never imagined. Contohnya my results. Alhamdulillah. Then when I feel like tak faham something, He helped me to go through this life confidently. Memang la susah nak didik diri tu kan, tapi cuba and jangan berhenti mencuba! kan? :)

Plus now I'm facing the hardest phase of my studies. Busy gila dengan assignments, tambah pulak dengan tanggungjawab dengan society. Yela, takkan la nak duduk study je then tak develop skills yg patut, ye tak? Yes, memang busy and makan masa sebab banyak gila meeting, tapi okay apa.... Dalam CV leh letak macam2 sampai tak muat page. LOL.

Anyway I'm happy that I finally have this feelings. Walaupun tak hebat macam all other guys and girls in my course, tapi takpelahh I can do it! Yakin itu penting..

Sorry this is a spontaneous entry. Memang tak cadang nak tulis langsung. Just got back from netball training and sangat penat. Jadi takde mood nak study. Kita tulis pon macam tak betul sikit. Dah lama nye tak blog, rinduuuuu..

I've faced the hardest time of my life last week for not being able to control my emotions. So moral of the story BLAME PMS!!! haha.. Takde point, saja nak bagitahu.. Hopefully u guys have a pleasant raya haji. sobbsssss kita raya kat perantauan jeeeee :(

Okaylahhh please people, pray for me! I wanna be a good engineer, insyaAllah. Hopefully I will. Amin :)

Take care and till I have free time again :)

p/s: I missssssssssssssss this blog. tq

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Lu'Lu' = Mutiara

2011-10-20T18:07:00.000+01:00

Salam.

Phew! Subhanallah finally I got time to blog. I've been busy for the past couple of weeks. I've got so many tasks to be done and alhamdulillah I still manage to do everything on my own. May Allah ease, insyaAllah! :)

As promised, I'd like to bring you to my new house. Perhaps today I'll just show you my room because I haven't got any opportunities to snap pictures of my whole house. Sabar ye!

Soooo... yes.. A bit of introduction. I live at a Sheffield community area named Broomhall. I live here with my other 4 Chemical engineers friends (yes, all of them are chemical engineers which left me the only mechanical engineer, haha!). They are Izzati, Naz, Tyra and Piqa. We also have a special guest for 3 months insyaAllah, Kak Lai which she's doing research on Chemistry - something like transfer student. So currently we are 6! yeap :)

After a week or so (I cant remember), we decided to name our house Lu'Lu' which means the Pearl (Mutiara). Ada sebut dalam Al-Quran (55:22). We want to have a Rumah Islam as what Naz explained so we chose a name that could be find in the Al-Quran, InsyaAllah. We even had a house-warming last two weeks which was a blast! Another post coming on that, insyaAllah if I have time to update.

We've got 5 bedrooms with quite large spaces; a room on the ground floor which happen to be my room. 3 more rooms on the 1st floor and an attic room on the top floor. We also have a living room where we have breakfast/tea/dinner/supper together, and where Tyra always play piano for us. Yes, she is a good pianist indeed. And we got a kitchen where we always had fun cooking for everyone, 1 bathroom and 1 shower room. We also have a backyard which we definitely do BBQ during Spring and lovely lawn at the entrance of our house. Just like a big family house, the Lu'Lu's family :)

I have so far experienced the best and calm place to live. Alhamdulillah after struggling at Sri Rampai, and with expensive rental at Opal 2, now I have a nice room, a big house, and wonderful housemates with me. I feel homey, I really am. Alhamdulillah :)

Now let's move to see my room! Pictures below were taken just before I went back to Malaysia last June, which it was the day we moved our stuffs into the house.

I hate how it looks at first. The old furniture, and the curtain rail was broken. and the curtain itself was ugly. Look at the wardrobe. Mana muat baju kot! haha, demanding much, I asked our landlord to change almost everything while I went back home. I even asked him to paint our house white! haha.. I can't remember but it was quite a long list we gave him :p

So after few weeks, I tried to make my room a cosy place for me to stay, to study and to enjoy, finally I'm done with it. I'm truly satisfied with what I have now. heee.. Now, to my room, shall we? :D

Gambar lama, tanpa printer :p

my mini pantry :p

yes, like what you saw, RED is the new PINK! and I got the best landlord ever! He even changed my wardrobe to a beautiful white wardrobe.. Like he knew I love white furniture ^^ I'm so happy with my room! This was taken 2 hours ago, just after I cleaned up my messy room. Being busy means you don't have time to do the house chores the way you want it.

So you're welcome to come anytime you want! oh, girls only okayyy :D heee..

Netball training in an hour, in the cold! Have to keep myself warm as well. To you people out there, take good care of yourself and always have faith in Allah! and in yourself.. Not sure when will I blog again, but I will when I have time for myself. Like I said, 3rd year is hectic. Really2 hectic :')

Till then, Salam :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

On me and Sheffield so far

2011-09-30T17:25:00.000+01:00

Salam.

I promised to write when I arrived, but.......... poor us, we got no internet at home! Not until 2 hours ago XD yeappie! Alhamdulillah.. everything gets easier when you have internet in the UK. In fact, worldwide.

Alhamdulillah safely arrived at Sheffield last Friday (and it is a week already). This semester, I live in a rented house with my 4 other friends. There are 5 of us. Alhamdulillah, everything has been good so far. I want to show you guys my room and my house! Although it is the typical old-style UK house, but I love it so far :)

More to tell you, but it will be more interesting with pictures. Till next time ;)

p/s: 3rd year is even more HECTIC!

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Last night in Ipoh

2011-09-21T17:18:00.000+01:00

Salam.

So today has arrived, finally. I'm gonna say bubbye to my house, to my family and to everyone in Malaysia. Perjuangan harus diteruskan, baba kata. InsyaAllah, dengan pulangnya ke Sheffield, ilmu akan bertambah, pengalaman juga bertambah. Be positive! That's it. No sad faces! No crying baby! (although I know I will cry kejap lagi).

Like always, gerun melihat bag yang amat berat itu! Yang pertama, takut overweight and kena bayar lebih. Yang kedua, takut tak larat nak angkat time sampai Sheffield nanti. Kan best kalau ada yang nak hulur bantuan. tolong bawakkan handbag pon boleh la, handbag cheq berat ada kamera besaq :(

aaaaaaahhh kenapa 3 bulan tu kejap sangat. Rasa macam baru je sampai Malaysia. Baru je habis exam. Now kena study balik, dah 3rd year lak tu! kan best kalau 3rd year ni final year.. zzzz tapi xleh lagi! kita habiskan sampai Master okayyyy XD

Esok flight 7.30pm, oh i mean, siang nanti T___T Jadi, persediaan terakhir haruslah mengemas rumah. Pantang rasa tinggal rumah sepah2. Ummi ajar kalau nak tinggal rumah, kemas rumah dulu. hehe

Alright, Selamat malam terakhir Ipoh. I love u! Nak jump on bed, mummy is waiting for her daughter. Tidur dengan ummi memang best. I love u Ummi! I love u Baba!

bergenang dah air mata. sentimental sungguh.

OK ini serius. selamat malam malaysia. Semoga kita jumpa lagi tahun hadapan. Penulisan bersambung di Sheffield, insyaAllah.

Salam sayang untuk semua. Doakan perjalanan saya selamat pergi dan juga pulang.

*senyum*

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Kelantan 2011

2011-09-19T08:08:00.001+01:00

Salam.

15-18th July 2011.

So my dreams came true last July! I went to Kelantan with N and his friends last July and stayed with Hani :) Kitorang pergi naik train and that was my first time..

Nawal dan Fareez's Wedding @ Pasir Mas. Alhamdulillah everything went well and congratulations to both of them. Semoga Allah terus memberkati :)

Thank to Hani sebab bawak jalan2 Kelantan. hee. Kalau tak, pergi Kelantan tak buat apa2 la sebab ada orang tu abaikan kiteeeeeee :( takpelah, Hani kan ada! and paling penting, dapat pergi PANTAI!! Thanks hani :)

Anyway it was a great visit :)

Edited:

Dapat pergi KBMall, Wakaf Che Yeh, and dapat jumpa ramai orang yang dah lama saya teringin nak jumpa. Well, Kelantan is a must place to go again (Well, to me wajib lah kot? :p). and next time, seseorang itu tak ada excuses to not drive me around Kelantan.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

a week

2011-09-14T13:06:00.000+01:00

Salam.

Tepat pada hari ni, setahun yang lalu, saya tengah duk nervous2 di KLIA menanti waktu perlepasan ke Sheffield. Agak takut sebab first time naik kapal terbang, fuhh :p It was a very sweet moment for me, indeed. Sebab apa, sebab tu lah langkah pertama for me to create a new chapter in my life. alhamdulillah. Asam garam setahun hidup di negara orang takkan dilupakan.

and now, Tinggal seminggu je lagi sebelum tinggalkan Malaysia untuk meneruskan perjuangan di Sheffield. tuptaptuptap dah nak masuk 3rd year. Alhamdulillah. Dari duk pungpangpungpang tak suka engineering, tengok2 dah sampai sini dah. Well, Syaheeda takkan mengalah. Perjuangan ni akan diteruskan. Alhamdulillah. Cuti kali ni dah bukakan pintu hati ni untuk teruskan perjuangan ni. Semoga minat dan skills itu akan beransur-ansur datang :)

I'll be back to Sheffield next Thursday, 22 September, 7.30pm. Singgah kat Dubai 10jam dulu sakitkan tengkuk dan badan tidur kat waiting area, then teruskan perjalanan lagi 7 jam before ke Birmingham. Lepastu tunggu beberapa jam lagi, baru lah boleh sampai Sheffield. A long journey waiting for me. Jadi, sekarang nak rest puas2 kat rumah walaupun dah cukup rest 3 bulan ha. I'm getting really big and fat. Tapi tak apa la, tu namanya tanda happy duduk di rumah. If I am happy with myself, then why should you make a big deal about it kan? hee

Progress persiapan untuk balik cuma beberapa peratus, mungkin cuma 20%. Sebab sangat tak semangat nak balik -.- Excited nak balik, nak hias bilik baru, nak start my 'saving plan'. Tapi, sangat malas nak start study balik. Sebabnya, plan study tak buat lagi. hee. InsyaAllah akan buat by the time sehari dua before start kelas (hee, soooo last minute when it comes to study :p)

Bosan jugak hari2 terakhir kat rumah ni, takda siapa di sisi. Ummi baba kerja, adik2 sekolah, akak n adik2 lain kat KL, kawan2 dah balik uni, N dah balik moscow, and me got no one T___T Bila depress pon, susah nye la nak cerita kat siapa2. Nak shopping barang2 bawak balik UK pon sorang2. I'm all alone. Tu la kadang2 rasa tak sabar nak balik to start a new life. Tapi, berat juga hati nak balik. It will be another year to see my loved ones kat Malaysia. oh, mata dah berair.

Bosannya entri tanpa gambar. Nanti lah internet dah laju, kita buat 30days photog challenge lagi okayh! XD

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Aidilfitri 2011

2011-09-03T15:29:00.000+01:00

Salam.

I know it's a bit late to wish this, but...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin :)

Been busy celebrating aidilfitri at my kampung, tak terlayan blog dah. I'm sorry :p

Well, I will be celebrating raya till 22nd Syawal. Not long to go till I see Sheffield and wave goodbye to Malaysia. Now let's cherish every moment :)

Have a wonderful Eid :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Ramadhan the 25th

2011-08-25T04:37:00.001+01:00

Salam.

Alhamdulilah. Hari ni dah 25 Ramadhan. Dah hujung2 Ramadhan ni, terasa rugi pulak tak memanfaatkan banyak masa lapang untuk buat apa2 yang patut, lebih2 lagi mendekatkan diri kepada-Nya. Nak kata jetlag lagi, memang melampau sebab dah cukup 2 bulan berada di rumah. Tapinya, badan tu penat tak habis2. Mungkin badan penat sebab asyik rehat tak buat apa-apa? Melampau sungguh.

Bahang raya tak terasa lagi. Mungkin sebab ummi dan baba busy. Buat kuih raya sorang-sorang sebab akak dan adik-adik belum balik Ipoh. Nak sental tingkap, sangatlah malas sebab mesti tak cantik macam bila Ummi buat. Bila dah vacuum, kemas rumah segala, si kecik tu pulak sepahkan rumah (INI GERAMMM!!). Tension betul. Kemas sini, sepah sana. Kemas sana, sepah sini. Macam baik tak payah kemas. Tapi, okay lah tu. Kemas dari tak kemas langsung. Dah kemas almari, sikit je baju rupanya -.- Tapi, khazanah berharga sangat banyak. Iaitu habuk -.-

Misi untuk exercise lagi lah, beberapa kali je menjadi. Bila dah bulan puasa ni, konon nak angkat tangan pun tak larat (over gila -.-), apa tah lagi berlari atas treadmill. Jadinya exercise paling simple adalah dengan membasuh pinggan dan mengemas rumah. haha. Rasanya kejap lagi nak test baju raya, takut pulak tiba-tiba tak muat atau nampak spare tyre (o.0)"

Banyak jugak try resipi-resipi baru cuti ni, lagi2 kek. Sebabnya, selalu saya buat kek tak menjadi sangat. Budak tak reti sabar, kalau nak pukul adunan tu bukan main laju dan tak tertib, mana tak nya kek tu tak menjadi. Tapi, itu tahun lepas la. Tahun ni, dah reti belajar bersabar. Belajar step by step. Jadi jugak lah beberapa kek yang jarang dapat buat sendiri ni :p

1. Pandan Layered Cake - ambil resipi dari blog seseorang, tapi dia dah delete blog dia lah pulak -.- Tapi memang sedap, cuma puding dia mungkin sedikit pekat. Takut nak tambah air, sebab tak pernah buat kek jenis ni. Kek sangat spongy, sangat sedap bau pandan dia! Great success, Ummi suka! Nanti nak buat lagi bila akak balik Ipoh, sebab this is her favorite! :D

2. Moist Chocolate Cake Bakar - Sangat moist (tapi tak de la moist sangat2 macam kukus) walaupun bakar dalam oven. Actually kek ni untuk budak Moscow tu yang gilakan kek coklat tu. Tapi, nak buek camno, den ponat aritu. Jadi terlengah-lengah buat kek ni, tak sempat siap before dia pulang ke Sg Buloh semula T___T Last sekali tersadai dalam peti ais tu, tunggu ketibaan kanak-kanak UIA je. Tapi tak apa lah, aritu dah buat cupcakes from the same recipe bagi dia rasa. So, halal lah tu :p Resipi ni dari MyResipi je..

3. Apam Polkadot with blueberry fillings - I'm not a fan of this kind of apam sangat, tapi tengok lah kecomelan er. Memang rasa nak gigit-gigit bagi habis. Fawani kata macam cendawan mario. haha.. Ambil resipi kat myresipi. Tak pernah buat jenis kuih yang macam apam ni, jadi bila pukul tu, tak tahu dah kembang ke tak. Rupanya tak cukup kembang -.- Jadinya kek ni mampat gila walaupun dah letak ovalette. Rasanya macam kurang manis masin, tapi blueberry make it perfect! hehe.. Tinggal lagi satu, makan time berbuka la malam ni :D Boleh try buat lagi untuk bawak balik Kampung. InsyAllah..

Cakap pasal kampung, tak sabar nak balik kampung! Dua bulan cuti, tak pergi jalan2 mana, tak balik kampung. Takat ulang alik KL ade lah -.- Harap2 Baba dan Ummi tak busy dah and boleh bring me somewhere dalam remaining cuti ni. Nak pantai T___T

ahhh, finally my holiday almost come to its end. Tak lama, coz in less than a month, I'll be back to Sheffield again. *sigh* Terasa cepat betul masa berlalu, tak cukup lama rasanya cuti ni. and I am not ready to face 3rd Year. Honestly, tinggal lagi satu subject tak decide sebagai pilihan di hati. Tak tahu kemampuan diri sendiri, tu lah pasal nya T___T Kena register cepat.. aigooo..

Malam tadi before tidur dah kemas rumah, tapi pagi ni si kenit sepahkan balik -.- OK lah, off to kemas rumah. Arini nak sental habuk.. Itu pon kalau rajin, kalau tiba-tiba malas, memang tak buat la kot -.-

Selamat berpuasa lagi beberapa hari ni! (^^)v

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Adik saya Hebat!

2011-08-05T07:41:00.000+01:00

Salam.

Adik saya hebat! Subhanallah.. hee.. Hari ni bukak blog dia nampak lukisan dia ni. Which reminded me of my SPM year. Waktu ambil PSV dulu, cikgu pernah ajar teknik melukis yang ni. Nama khasnya, taktahu. Tapi, saya panggil teknik dot dot.. hihi.. Bila ada adik ambil architecture ni, baru tahu nama teknik2 yang ada. Well, akaknya cuma menumpang ilmu sikit2.

Cuba tengok ni, hebat kan? Ni task Graphic Communication dia. Setiap kali dapat tugasan ataupun dah siap tugasan dia tu, mesti dia akan tunjuk kat kak ieda dia. Maka Kak Ieda dia pon jeles -.-

Tengok lukisan dia ni, mestilah mengimbau kembali masa belajar melukis dengan cikgu kat MRSM dulu. Walaupun teknik tu tak berapa mahir pon, tapi at least tahu lah kan. hihi. Ni yang lukis buah pear guna teknik dot dot. First time lukis dulu rasanya buah oren. Ni trial dalam sketch book. Sebab dulu, cikgu suruh banyakkan melukis dalam sketch book. Boleh berlatih. aaaa and now, mana kah buku sketch saya yang dulu2? T__T rindu okay..

Punyalah pemalas, dot pon x nampak mcm dot :p

Apepon, my sisters ketiga-tiganya are coming home! yey! mula2 hnsh macam x boleh balik sebab ade projek kena buat.. dan tiba-tiba, boleh pulak dapat SMS 'Kak Ieda, kalo cah blek.. kak ieda kena tlg buat projek masjid tu skali.. hohoh'.. hamboi!! Tapi x apa lah, sebab saya suka, walaupun dah noob dalam seni, saya mestilah nak menyibuk buat sekali! :D

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Harimau Malaya vs Arsenal FC

2011-08-04T05:45:00.000+01:00

Salam.

13th July 2011.

Football. Seriously, I know nothing about this game. But, nak buat macam mana dah adik2 and close friends semua pun suka bola.

There was this morning, bangun dari tidur dapat SMS yang bagitahu I just got a FREE ticket to Arsenal VS Malaysia match. haha takdelah.. Dapat SMS dari orang tu bagitahu dia dah beli tiket untuk pergi tengok match dengan dia, together with my sister yang merupakan die hard fan of arsenal. Yang saya tahu waktu tu adalah I can go for free, and everyone around me will be happy. Then teringat lagi dua orang die hard fans kat rumah yang tak ada tiket. Confirm diorang sedih. haha. Sebagai kakak yang 'baik hati', terus beli 2 lagi tiket. Kalau duit pound, memang tak rasa la kan cuma £25 je seorang termasuk overseas charges :p

So we went to Stadium Bukit Jalil that evening. FYI, ni macam kali pertama jugak lah saya tengok bola dari awal sampai habis, LIVE pulak tu. What I can conclude from that day adalah, I am a noob when it comes to football, but yeah, I brought my spectacles just to see those SUPER GOOD LOOKING GUYS! Tak kisah lah who's sitting beside me time tu, kalau dah nampak Van Persie memang tak dapek la nak control diri sendiri. Tu belum Cesc Fabregas lagi. hehe, okayyyy nasib baik orang sebelah saya sporting. Habis kamera dia penuh dengan gambar Van Persie dan Samir Nasri warming up saya tangkap :p

Apepon, it was a good game walaupun Harimau Malaya kalah 0-4. Siap pakai jersey Malaysia okayyyy (kena paksa). hehe.. Happy sangat sebab adik-adik 3 orang tu ada, dia ada, dan RYE pon ade :p

InsyaAlllah kalau ada rezeki tengok Arsenal main dekat Emirates pulak one day :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Of My Ramadhan

2011-08-02T07:17:00.001+01:00

Salam.

Alhamdulillah syukur lillah for giving me the opportunity to enjoy the Ramadhan blessings this year. I'm gonna spend the whole Ramadhan at home, hence I might as well enjoy the chance I have :) Alhamdulillah the first day has been going well. I had a proper sahur and a nice Iftar with my family. The whole family also went to masjid to perform Isyak and Tarawih prayers, the things we usually do together every year, alhamdulillah.

Sometimes, I miss Sheffield. I wonder how things are going on there. hihi. Alright, I'll stop now and continue later. Still got few stories to write but I'll do one at a time. InsyaAllah.

Guess what is my family theme colour for raya this year? :p

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Goodbye July, Salam Ramadhan

2011-07-31T16:11:00.001+01:00

Salam.

wow. Lama sungguh tak update blog :D

Anywaysss my July has been going well! I had so much fun bercuti selama sebulan kat Malaysia so far. and as expected, berat sudah naik. Jumpa semua orang, semua pon nak bising yang saya ni 'sihat' sangat sekarang ni. Well, biaq pi lahhh kan :p

Banyak nye nak cerita! Starting from 13th July punya cerita.. Tapi esok2 lah kalau rajin nak update..

By the way, nak ucapkan Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak to all Muslimin and Muslimat around the world. Semoga bertambah iman kita, semoga ibadah kita diterima oleh Allah swt, semoga Ramadhan tahun ni lebih elok dari sebelumnya, semoga kita semua diredhai-Nya. Mohon maaf zahir dan batin kepada semua yang mengenali diri saya, moga Allah merahmati kalian :)

hihi, gambar ni macam menarik sebab first time pakai tudung cmni..

Adik punye tudung and I looked sooooo fat :p

Okaylahh gotta sleep early, esok nak sahur. Take care :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Seorang diri di rumah adalah tidak cool.

2011-07-12T07:14:00.001+01:00

Salam.

Bosan. Lagi bosan bila semua orang keluar kerja atau pun ke sekolah. Tinggal seorang diri kat rumah memang tak pernah best. Lagi-lagi bila the level of insecurities terlalu tinggi walaupun duduk di rumah sendiri. Itu lah, siapa suruh Malaysia ni menakutkan sangat. Bukan takut hantu Mak Limah, takut orang yang naik hantu nak pecah masuk rumah orang lah. zzzz. Bila bunyi pelik sikit, kan jantung dah berdegup laju. Nak rehat secara aman kat rumah sendiri pon tak boleh, sentiasa je rasa takut orang pecah masuk. Okay, makin lama memang makin seram je rasa dengan negara sendiri. Dengan macam-macam yang jadi, benarlah, lihat dari jauh tak sepedih orang yang merasa. Sekarang ni pon, bila nak drive, memang over paranoid. Nampak orang tunggang motosikal je, terus jantung berdegup laju.

Bila lah boleh nak rasa SECURE tinggal kat negara sendiri?

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Red Velvet Cake

2011-07-11T14:30:00.001+01:00

Salam.

My holiday is so far, boringggg... We planned to have barbecue and steamboat when sisters come back home from KL.. But the plan was cancelled sebab my aunty buat majlis tahlil sambut Ramadhan.. So, me and sister Wajeehah decided to bake cakes instead.

I baked Red Velvet cake and she baked ice-cream sandwiches. It tasted great cuma cream cheese dia probably terlebih gula and sedikit cair. Need to improve on that. By the way, the cake can be considered as my birthday cake la tu.. hehe :p

Abaikan cream cheese yang cair lagi hodoh atas cupcakes. lol

Recipe from <here>

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Twenty-One

2011-07-05T01:44:00.000+01:00

Salam.

Woke up this Fajr realizing I am a 21 years-old girl already.

Alhamdulillah. I am still able to breath healthily until today. After 21 years old, I am so happy that today I remembered to sujud syukur to Him for giving me opportunity to live in this world. Alhamdulillah, so grateful :)

No special celebration this year, I guess. No friends by my side, sisters are still in KL, parents are busy working, and I will be alone with my grandma (who came all the way from Negeri Sembilan) who doesn't even know that today is her granddaughter birthday. hehe

After few years celebrating birthday together in Malaysia, this year we did not get the chance to do it. So thanks to Skype for making it happen! Somebody just ended his 3rd year medical studies, hence the messy tired face. and my oily, sleepy, but happy face :)

To everyone, thanks for the birthday wishes. I am soooo happy to receive such sweet wishes from everyone. It made my day, thank you thank you, May Allah bless you :)

ahhhhh, feels so nice waking up knowing that today is your birthday. So, birthday photo is a must! :)

*muka baru bangun tidur*

Happy 21st Birthday Syaheeda :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Happy

2011-07-01T04:26:00.001+01:00

Salam.

There's a good news to be shared with all of you....

Alhamdulillah,

I got First-Class Honours again in my Spring Semester (2nd Semester) and passed the MEng qualifications :)

Alhamdulillah. Eventhough the percentage is lower than my Autumn Spring, I'm still glad that it is still 1 :) Guess I need to work harder next semester to maintain a good percentage till graduation.

Well, speaking of working harder, I am still thinking of what subjects to be taken next semester. I haven't registered, and I need help!! Sometimes it is easier when you're doing something that has been outlined for you than choosing something for your future by yourself, which is hard!

Mechatronics

Applied Noise and Vibration

Energy: Properties and Optimisation

Advanced Fluid Mechanics

Advanced Mechanics of Solids

Finite Element Techniques

Innovation Management

Aero Propulsion

Robot Technology

Mathematics (Computational Methods)

Renewable Energy

I need to take 4 out of 11 subjects from the list with 7 other subjects (not mentioned here) which are compulsory..

Now you tell me, which one sounds lovely?

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Hello Favourite Month! :)

2011-07-01T04:23:00.004+01:00

Salam.

Alhamdulillah, July is finally here, my favourite month. Because it is my month, and also the best time of my summer holiday :)

Still can't believe that I am in my house, in Ipoh, in Malaysia. I am sorry if I sound like an ungrateful girl when I say this - I can stand the warmness of Malaysia, but not the internet speed. I'm still adapting. Like seriously, I tried hard to be patient in this. Whatever it is, I can do this!

It has been 3 days since I arrived home. Haven't done anything good yet, other than watching korean dramas with my lil sister and Ummi coz I have to. Tak boleh tukar channel langsung, sabar jelah diorang ni. Ouh, I've fixed my messed up time zone. Tapi, I'm sleepy by the way. Slept at almost 2am but woke up at 6am and cannot sleep again until now -.- aigoo.. Dah betul-betul fix or not ni?

I can't drive, not yet. My license is expired and need to be upgraded to full license (yay!) before I can drive again :p Thought of cleaning my room and the house as well while everyone is out for school and work. Also, trying to... err... start exercising :p

Good news coming :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Malaysia.

2011-06-30T16:45:00.012+01:00

Salam.

I'm home. Alhamdulillah. Safely landed on 28th June 9.45pm. Lepastu straight balik Ipoh. kesian kat Baba, penat dia drive jauh2. Tapi, demi anak tersayang kan. heee :p

Balik2 dapat makan gulai tempoyak petai favorite. Lagi2, my grandma yang buatkan. Sedapppp and I ate that at 3.45am. Teman Baba sahur sekali. Habis bag saya kena geledah dengan si kecik tu. But I don't mind. Jetlag sikit. Siang bangun pukul 1pm, tu pon lepas kena siram air dengan si kecik tu -.- Malam tu susah jugak nak tidur, tapi tak ada lah lewat sangat. Hari ni, tak jetlag sangat dah. Tapi, tahan ngantuk sebab nak tulis entry ni. hehe..

Orang lain mengidam macam2, saya cuma mengidam char kuey teow. Tapi, dalam masa 2 hari, dah dapat makan macam2 dah. Tak payah mintak pon :p Seronokkkkkk but I have to stop it tomorrow. Ummi kata 3 days je jadi VIP, lepasni kena buat macam2 kerja dah. hehe.. Lepas ni kena exercise kalau tak nanti makin bulat. haha

Okaylah, nak tidur dah. Apa pun, I'm enjoying every moment right now. Alhamdulillah :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 30: Self-Portrait

2011-06-30T13:38:00.000+01:00

It's me! In my sweet purple room! :)

Guess it's the end of my 30 Days Photography Challenge. I had so much fun and happy to be a part of this. Will definitely do more of this in the future :)

Thank you :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 29: Black and White

2011-06-30T13:32:00.000+01:00

Hello Mr Bear, do you miss me? :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 28: Flowers

2011-06-30T13:30:00.002+01:00

I miss the beautiful spring :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 27: From a Distance

2011-06-30T12:31:00.011+01:00

Leaving the Great Britain for 3 months summer holiday in Malaysia!

Bye2 Sheffield, Bye2 United Kingdom! :)

Taken on 27th June 2011.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 26: Close-Up

2011-06-26T21:29:00.000+01:00

Salam.

So, today will be my last day in Sheffield this term. I'm so happy living here, and will definitely cherish my another 2 years here :) Right now, with mixed feelings, I just couldn't say a thing. Happy sad excited nervous, all are mixed! What I know is, I can't wait to be back. Can't wait to see the familiar faces that I've missed. Can't wait to spend my holidays with my family and friends. Can't wait to be in where I belong.

Tonight will be my last night in university accommodation. I've moved to my new house and my room looks completely empty. I'm gonna miss this room so badly. Anyway, Sheffield is so hot today. I was sweating all day moving my things. Feeling so tired right now that I'd just sleep until the sun rises again. That should mark the starting of my long journey back home.

InsyaAllah next time I'll be writing from my home sweet home.

Pray for my safe journey, see you in Malaysia :)

InsyaAllah :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 25: Something Pink

2011-06-25T17:53:00.000+01:00

Fruit picking with my family angkat at Nottinghamshire :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 24: Animal

2011-06-24T19:49:00.000+01:00

Thought of going to the park and capture the ducks' photos. But it was raining that I have no other brilliant ideas.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 23: Sunflare

2011-06-23T09:50:00.000+01:00

Good morning sunshine :)

I'm gonna miss the view that always approached me every morning. Sometimes it determined my mood that day. The fluffy clouds, or the sunny days, snowy days or even rainy days. I'm gonna miss the view - coz I'm not going to live in 3rd floor with wide window facing the sky anymore :')

ahhh, I feel so tired from yesterday. I packed up things, organized a lil bit more and added some more things. Even washed my sneakers! haha.. Can't wait to move into my new house this Sunday and show you my new room :D Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and MONDAY!

Can't believe I'm going back so soon :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 22: Hands

2011-06-22T16:34:00.003+01:00

Jari gemok.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 21: Faceless Self-Portrait

2011-06-21T23:38:00.000+01:00

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Kerana dia Ayahku

2011-06-21T14:10:00.003+01:00

Salam.

While I've been away from home, he's the one who kept telling me to be strong, to see this life from positive perspective, to always look forward, to live life to the fullest. I live this life by learning from his words, his thoughts, and his actions. He's the one who cheered up us all at home and he's the one who always give us everything so that we are happy. He worked so hard that these days, he always feel tired. His sacrifices are something. I am so free that I read back all of his inspiring words to me. I feel blessed that I am his daughter, and he is my dad.

Because he is my dad, he is my hero, he is my superman, he is my favorite man, he is my everything :)

Happy Belated Father's Day Baba. I love you :)

Your princess,
Ieda.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Oh abang Guard~

2011-06-20T21:06:00.001+01:00

Salam.

Sebenarnya nak cerita lebih lanjut tentang trip ke Cardiff dan London, tapi tunggu lah esok ke lusa ke. Tapi, tadi tiba-tiba teringat abang guard yang gatai kat London aritu. haha..

Dari kecik tahu London Guard ni mesti diri tegak je, org tangkap gambar dia pon tak gerak seinci. Tapi lain pada abang guard yang ni.. Sebab, bila orang lain tangkap gambar dengan dia, dia keras macam batu, tapi bila Syaheeda dekat dengan dia............. tengok dia buat apa:

Courtesy: Fawani

Dari 'baris sedia', dia pergi 'senang diri' pastu dia pergi siku2 lengan saya. haha. Pelik dah waktu tu, dah la mata dia kena tutup dengan topi. Dari sisi dia, mata dia duk buat 'signal' suruh pegang lengan dia. Cuba tengok gambar kedua dan ketiga, kepala dia kan senget sikit. hahaha.. Anggap je dia macam patung, saya pun tangkap la gambar macam tu, sentuh sikit lengan baju dia.. haha

Lepas tangkap gambar tu, saya dengan Fawani tak berhenti2 gelak kan abang ni. Macam tak percaya je dia buat macam tu. haha so sweet lah :p Tak tahu pulak London Guard boleh buat macam tu.. hehe.. Kalau dia buat kat Syaheeda seorang, best nyeeeeeeeeee tapi tak mungkin lah kan. mesti dia selalu buat kat orang lain jugak. Takpayah la kan nak perasan :p

hee, dari kecik bercita-cita nak tangkap gambar dengan London Guard. Finally, at the age of almost 21, dapat jugaklah merasa :)

Comel lah abang guard ni, serius :p

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 20: Bokeh

2011-06-20T17:13:00.001+01:00

I love my 50mm f1.8 baby!!

and

I ♥ Sheffield too

Eventually, bokeh made me happy!

True that I came back from the park with smiles on my lips ;)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

beautiful day

2011-06-20T15:10:00.000+01:00

Salam.

It's a beautiful day today, so I decided to write something.

I've done sorting and packing some stuffs to move out and also to bring back home. I am bored. Done blog walking, done watching movies, done cooking, done shopping. I am broke, totally broke. I just don't know what else to do right now.

There are a lot of things playing in my mind lately, but I just can't express it like I used to do anymore. I don't know what's up with me. Maybe approaching 21 made me become like this? haha

I guess I'll just go out and have a walk at the park alone. I guess. I hope I can go back to my room later with smiles of my lips :)

Happy Father's Day Baba, see you in 8 days :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 19: Something Orange

2011-06-19T10:38:00.005+01:00

The reason why I can stay strong till the end :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 18: My Shoes

2011-06-18T00:00:00.005+01:00

Yes, I love white shoes :D

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 17: Technology

2011-06-17T14:03:00.004+01:00

Honestly, I can't live with these 3 important things. Especially the white one.

All given by Baba. Hazel honey for my 20th birthday, VAIO darling for going overseas, and Canon baby that was belong to family before but Baba just let I have it coz he knows I'll make full use of it (like what I'm doing now) :p hihi.. They got a better one to replace the camera of course.

Click *this* for Day 13 update.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 16: Long Exposure

2011-06-16T00:00:00.000+01:00

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 15: Silhouette

2011-06-15T22:38:00.002+01:00

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 14: Eyes

2011-06-15T21:31:00.003+01:00

Picture taken on 14th June 2011.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 13: Myself with 13 Things

2011-06-15T20:33:00.001+01:00

Hello.

Due to inability to take pictures of myself while travelling, I have to wait for the pictures from my bestfriend's camera. I will update Day 13 as soon as possible. No worries! :)

*update on 17th June 2011*

Courtesy of my bestfriend Fawani

London's Guard
The Women of World War II Memorial
Emirates Stadium
Buckingham Palace
Tower of London
London Eye
Buckingham Palace Fountain
Trafalgar Square
Unknown name
Trafalgar Square Fountain
Tower Bridge a.k.a London Bridge
Big Ben
Unknown (but nearby Princess Diana Memorial Park)

Replaced 13 things with 13 places as well.

p/s: Sorry for the late update~

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Back.

2011-06-15T01:48:00.001+01:00

Salam.

Back in Sheffield :)

I am still tired from my 3 days sweet escape, hence the delay of update. I'm resting and trying to slowly get into phase where I can start with my long list to do during the holidays. Truth is, I am super tired. Got so many pictures to be uploaded to Facebook and blog, so many things to be shared, also trying to figure out what to do first i.e packing or resting? or what? I don't know.

What I know is I have another 12 days in Sheffield and I have to really spend it well. Need to slowly pack up things and wait for moving boxes, collect all things I wanna bring back home, keep updating my 30 Days Photography Challenge, coz believe it or not, I'm halfway through it already! :D

Talking about halfway, today sets the day that I've been in Sheffield for 9 months! Great success! Although sometimes I feel like just yesterday I was on my first plane ride to the UK :D Time flies super fast riteeeee?

All I need now is a good rest and a smile when I wake up tomorrow morning. May Allah pour happiness to our life, and to everyone, let's enjoy our summer holiday :)

p/s: Will update Day 13, 14, and 15 soon. Just when I'm not feeling tired anymore.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 12: Sunset

2011-06-15T00:43:00.000+01:00

Thought of taking sunset photo near Cardiff Bay that day, but sadly it was raining the whole day in Cardiff :( No SUN no SUNSET! Cardiff went wet :( Can't go out and visit more of Cardiff, so I took my bestfriend's hama beads and created my own version of sunset.

Picture taken in Senghenydd Hall, Cardiff on 12th June 2011.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 11: Something Blue

2011-06-15T00:32:00.000+01:00

Picture taken in Cardiff, 11th June 2011.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Sweet Escape

2011-06-12T11:31:00.000+01:00

Salam.

Hi all. I am currently in Cardiff. Off to London with my BGFF tomorrow.
Will be home soon :)

Take care of yourself!

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 10: Childhood Memory

2011-06-10T01:18:00.006+01:00

Presenting Amirah and Rufaidah, my once so called best friends :)

I don't know why out of many pictures, I cut this and paste into my art book. Good old times with them. Amirah is currently studying in Egypt and Rufaidah is just months away to be called a wife, insyaAllah :)

p/s: I hope after all the silly things happened in primary school, I can still be their (and everyone) good friend :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Quick Update

2011-06-09T10:30:00.000+01:00

Salam.

Hello all. So exam is over, alhamdulillah. I got so many things to be shared but I'll leave it until the right time comes. I am currently lazying on my bed since last night (now is 10.20am) and never want to get up and have shower :p Thought of sleeping the whole day but I woke up at my usual time jugak -.-

Now that exam is over, I wanna do everything that I've been wanting to do for sooo long. But seriously, I have no idea of what to do for now. What I know is, I'm gonna go shopping later at noon with Nina. Expect few new stuffs coming to fill in the empty wardrobe :p

By the way, I took a picture of Day 8 yesterday and will upload it later. Now that Day 9 task is 'Someone You Love', wait and see who's gonna be in the picture :)

Till then, see you around. Off to shower and the city! XD

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 8: A Bad Habit

2011-06-08T23:33:00.007+01:00

Kerut dahi, muka garang

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 7: Fruit

2011-06-07T08:30:00.000+01:00

Nervous about my last exam paper tomorrow!!

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 6: From a Low Angle

2011-06-06T00:06:00.009+01:00

I know, seems like not really a low angle though, but it is actually. I was busy today with preparation for my final paper this semester. I'd rather have a bad photo than seeing my parents' sad faces.

oh, by the way, this is the place where I am staying.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 5: From a High Angle

2011-06-05T13:36:00.003+01:00

Check out my new DIY project at http://blurpys.blogspot.com/2011/06/mosaic-of-photos.html

Check this out: http://whitepeachphoto.com/2011/05/25/photography_challenge/

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 4: Something Green

2011-06-04T18:35:00.002+01:00

I love MILO :p

"Minum MILO anda jadi sihat dan kuat" :p

Check this out: http://whitepeachphoto.com/2011/05/25/photography_challenge/

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Of Summer Love

2011-06-04T09:55:00.000+01:00

Salam.

Recently I discovered that my Picasa Web Album are full, so I could not upload any photos to my blog instantly anymore. I used to just upload everything from my camera and didn't re-size them. Hence, that explains the exceeding capacity.

Anyway, as yesterday me and my girls went to the park to wait for the clouds (-.-'), we didn't waste the time just to wait. Of course we had a mini picnic and photoshoots as well :D

I decided not to load more pictures here instead of making full use of my artsy fartsy blog (yeah, right -.-) that I have abandoned for quite a long time. Here's the link to my blog, so you can see more pictures there:

http://blurpys.blogspot.com/

If you're a fan of arts or anything nice, make sure you check out the links at the bottom of the blog coz there are a lot of awesome craft bloggers, photographers, etc that you might find interesting.

Anyway the picture should resembles Day 4 Task (Something Green). But, trying not to cheat here, I'll try and capture something green today, okayy :p

Have a nice Saturday everyone :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 3: Clouds

2011-06-03T22:25:00.003+01:00

Guess what? No clouds today! The day was so sunny and the sky was sooo blue. A nice view really. This was taken when I saw a small group of clouds moving slowly. Just little spots -.- Then, in the evening I went to the park to wait for more fluffy clouds, but none -.- I was sad to not be able to capture the view of clouds I usually see, but hey, it was still a beautiful day in Sheffield today :)

Check this out: http://whitepeachphoto.com/2011/05/25/photography_challenge/

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 2: What I wore today

2011-06-02T17:14:00.004+01:00

Simple girl, wear simple things.

Check this out: http://whitepeachphoto.com/2011/05/25/photography_challenge/

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Day 1: Self-Portrait

2011-06-01T10:36:00.012+01:00

p/s: I looked awkward. It has been a long time since I last smiled for a camera. So this is the best shot I can get. Blame exam stress.

Check this out: http://whitepeachphoto.com/2011/05/25/photography_challenge/

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

30 Days Photography Challenge

2011-06-01T00:00:00.010+01:00

Salam.

Hi all. Seems like time is moving so fast, and it's already June! I bet May has been wonderful with some hard times too (well, that's referring to exams).

Okay, where to start?

I can do a lot of things, but I am not always good in something I know I can do. and now we're talking about photography. Unlike my super talented friend FRR, and effortlessly adorable bestfriend Fawani, I am just a girl who has been loving taking pictures since I know what camera is, and destroying cameras all the time. Of how blog can keep the written memories, photograph captures the moment perfectly, and that's how I like it :)

Will be going home nearly the end of this month, I decided to join this 30 Day Photography Challenge which I found from http://whitepeachphoto.com. Why? Just because I'll be having a month of carefree and I want to enjoy each second of it. At least, I have something to look up to, right? I guess a good start for someone lazy like me. Inspired by both FRR's 365 project, and Fawani's 365 minus 30 project, here I am taking baby steps to my first 30 day project :p

I am not a photographer, I just love taking random pictures.

Well said, I am so excited! Looking forward to having fun with this :D
Let's cherish some moments, shall we? :)

Check this out: http://whitepeachphoto.com/2011/05/25/photography_challenge/

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Spring Exam 2011

2011-05-20T15:33:00.004+01:00

Salam

*will always update this entry*

~~21st May 2011 : Business Skills for the Engineers~~
~~24th May 2011 : Computational and Numerical Methods~~
~~31st May 2011 : Dynamics of Structures and Machines~~
~~2nd June 2011 : Fluids Engineering~~
8th June 2011 : Materials Processing

Doakan saya, please? Thanks :)

**************

26th June 2011 : Pindah rumah Baru.
27th June 2011 : Naik flight Emirates pergi Dubai
28th June 2011 : Dari Dubai ke Malaysia tersayang ♥

Tak sabar nak balik :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Go Healthy!

2011-05-19T14:51:00.000+01:00

Salam.

So yesterday was something. Why? I came across this and it made me thinking.

When I came here, I got sick almost every month. I wondered why and why. At the same time, I gained weight. Then it made me realized, it was because of the foods and lack of exercises (I know).

Why on earth on did I neglected my health in the first place? Foods are awesome, but I should stop cooking the regular dishes that are so oily and high in calories.

So today, I tried to make a difference to my life. I hope I can do this constantly. I really hope I will not stop the half way. heee :)

Plain Spaghetti with chicken cubes, capsicums and carrots :)

Best, used very little olive oil and black+white pepper. Also used mixed herbs. Simple to prepare and most importantly, hopefully it is healthy :) Honestly, it doesn't taste as nice as the normal spaghetti I cooked because of the carrots (I don't fancy veges), but it tastes healthy - less oily and less salty :p

Let's pray that this is forever :)

p/s: Thanks Sis Hana :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Things to Do After Exam

2011-05-19T09:00:00.001+01:00

Salam.

Kalau nak bagi semangat untuk exam, haruslah fikir apa yang menanti selepas nye. Hehe, like always. I have a long list :D

Snap a lot of pictures of Sheffield -
Cardiff & London awaits!
Discover the undiscovered places in Sheffield! haha (since everyone is going on Eurotrip and I'm not going, so apa kata kita buat solo trip jalan2 dalam Sheffield? It should be fun!)
Baking! So wanna try something new!
Complete the travel journal before going back to Malaysia! (thousands of pictures to be printed)
Packing - loving this!
Shopping - seriously!
Balik Malaysia! yahooooooooooooo!

woohoo!

Maybe will do all, or maybe not.Or maybe will do things that are not in the list. haha

OK, study sekarang.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

of before and after.

2011-05-18T12:46:00.000+01:00

Salam.

Just a sharing:

Read this http://syeedaghazali.blogspot.com/2011/03/design-and-me.html. I wrote this on March. Questioning why and why and why again. Almost losing faith on my own capabilities.

But, when I read this http://syeedaghazali.blogspot.com/2011/05/make-and-break-2011.html, I smiled.

Allah gave me the answer :)

Subhanallah :)

p/s: Syaheeda can do it! Syaheeda always can! go go go Syaheeda!

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

She's so Lucky.

2011-05-18T11:59:00.001+01:00

Salam.

May your life will be filled with happiness today :)

Salam from Sheffield to everyone :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

On the Other Notes...

2011-05-17T20:19:00.002+01:00

Salam.

[Mode: Break from Study]

I wished my brain can stop from thinking wayyyy too much now. Not like I want it to dysfunction (MINTAK JAUHHHH!!), but sometimes it is tiring when you want to sleep so badly but your brain tend to work so hard at that moment. Time tu lah nak fikir esok nak masak apa, esok nak study apa, what should I do when I go back to Malaysia, baju raya kaler apa (???), etc etc.

It gets pretty tiring ya know? As I lay on my bed at 11.30pm, sometimes I can only sleep at almost 1.00am.

*sigh*

My brain is a really hardworking organ. But sometimes, it annoys me so much that I NEED REST! I might look older than my real age by now *sigh*, too much thinking. Thankfully UBAN is still no no, hair is as black as always -.-

Well, there was this one night that made me think (obviously).

Have I done enough to make my family happy? Is it okay for me to be happy experiencing with my new life here while at the other side of world, they're still living the same way like I left it?

I feel bad, I want them to be happy as I am. I mean, the 4 seasons country, snow, hujan batu, autumn, the lovely spring and everything! I feel bad actually when anyone said that they are jealous with me. I don't mean to do that, it's just that my luck. Allah wants me to be here, Allah wants me to be happy. Is it wrong for me to show them what I feel while at the same time, they're hiding the 'omg i'm so jealous' feelings towards me? -.-

I am truly sorry if I ever did that, never had the intention really :|

Of family : I made a promise to myself, that one day, one fine and beautiful day, I will bring all of them here with my money. If not 100%, I'll try as hard as I can to make it come true! I want them to come here and feel what I've been feeling while I'm gone from home. I promise, kill me if I break it okay.

On the other notes, I can see my lil sister has grown up well. She's no longer the lil girl I used to know before. Reading her blog made me cry. It was a bitter pill to swallow seeing my family struggled really hard to satisfy everyone's needs. I can't even talk about it coz I'll end up crying. I don't want to see Ummi and Baba sad, and I do hope after all the hardship they've been through, they'll get what they want. What they did was so noble, and they inspired me a lot to become stronger than ever.

What I can do for now is pray for their happiness and keep praying that whatever crisis we're having now, Allah will make it easy for them to make their first step in Makkah. I know, at this moment, it will be the one and only wish that they really want to achieve. InsyaAllah soon Allah will grant our wishes, amin.

I love my family, more than ever :')

p/s: 4 days till the first online exam, and 6 days to the first exam paper.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

We learn it the Hard Way

2011-05-16T14:35:00.003+01:00

Salam.

Saya tak tahu lah nak klasifikasi penulisan saya ini sebagai apa, tapi saya hanya membiarkan jari saya menaip dan otak saya berfikir. Tanpa arah tuju, harapannya supaya penulisan ini dapat menjadi satu pembakar semangat buat diri yang bakal menduduki exam pertama Sabtu ini.

Pagi tadi apabila bangun, tiba-tiba terfikir: Dah 8 bulan aku di Sheffield, di negara orang, apa yang telah aku sumbangkan pada diri dan orang lain? Apa yang telah aku sumbangkan pada agama ku? Apa yang telah aku sumbangkan pada dunia?

Terfikir sejenak, yang tiada jawapan. Yang muncul di fikiran pada ketika itu adalah, saya mahu hidup dengan lebih gembira di Sheffield pada dua tahun akan datang.

Saya selalu berfikir, kenapa jalan ini yang Allah mahu saya pergi? dan saya berfikir, kenapa diri ini selalu sangat berfikir -.- Kenapa perlu disoalkan perkara yang Allah dah tetapkan, bukan kah ini Qada' dan Qadr? ya.

Tapi, bila dah 8 bulan berada di sini, macam-macam yang saya dapat. Benarlah kata orang, keluarlah dari comfort zone anda, janganlah jadi macam katak di bawah tempurung. Bukalah mata luas-luas walaupun N kata mata saya sepet, pandanglah jauh2 supaya kita lebih berfikiran terbuka.

dan saya rasa, hari ini, hidup ini telah menjadikan saya seorang yang 'baru'.

Quitting engineering has always been the thing that always pop up in my mind. Selalu sangat disebut-sebut dalam blog ini, tapi sekali pon tak pernah disebut depan ummi dan baba. Takut mereka sedih sebab saya putus asa. Tak. Saya tak putus asa, saya cuma mahu buat sesuatu yang saya suka.

Courtesy: Google

Tapi apakah talent saya terbantut di situ saja jika saya kata saya mahu follow apa yang saya suka? Beberapa hari lepas, sempat berbual panjang dengan ummi. Tiba-tiba, saya tersebut juga 'Ummi, ikutkan hati ieda, dengan ieda yang tak berapa pandai ni, ieda nak je quit. Tapi, buat apa kan putus asa'. Seriously, tak pernah rancang untuk sebut. Ummi senyap seketika, ummi kata 'Takpelah, sikit je lagi'.

Lepastu saya terfikir, saya ke tu yang cakap 'buat apa kan putus asa'? ye, saya yang cakap. Yang saya sendiri tak rancang pon nak sebut. benar, perlu ke saya putus asa bila Allah dah bagi segalanya yang saya nak? Saya tak habis-habis cakap tak mahu itu ini, Allah bagi perjalanan hidup saya amat mudah. Ikut jelah kan?

Contoh pertama, exam. Alhamdulillah, walaupun tidak genius, semua exam2 besar UPSR, PMR, SPM, saya tak pernah dapat selain dari A. Semua straight A's. Bila di Foundation year, siap dapat dua kali 4.0flat. Siapa kata 4.0 tu senang nak dapat? (kt KMKN dulu senang la, tu dpt tu. hehe). First year di Malaysia, first class jugak. Sem lepas, first class jugak. Dari Kampung Gajah, ke United Kingdom, apakah perlu lagi saya quit?

I've gone this far to become who I am today. Alhamdulillah, confidence tu dah grab dalam diri. Walaupun to speak in public still *%*^$&%# berterabur dan bergetar-getar suaranya, but I can speak fluently in front of my friends. Paling-paling terasa, bila hari tu tengok movie sambil rehat dari study, tiba-tiba saya rasa saya faham orang putih tu cakap apa. Ye, selama ni saya tengok je orang tu berlakon, tengok baju dia, tengok muka dia tengok etc etc, tapi apa dia cakap, struggle gila nak faham jadi saya selalu abaikan je. Hari tu, bila saya tengok, saya macam curious kenapa saya rasa macam orang tu bercakap dengan saya? Kenapa saya boleh faham orang tu cakap ape? Alhamdulillah. hari ni saya dah boleh dengar dengan jelas bila orang cakap English dengan saya. Ingat tak saya selalu sedih time awal2 sampai sebab tak faham lecturer ajar apa sebab x faham accent dorang? ohh sampai sekarang tak faham gak dorang ajar apa, tapi bukan sebab accent dah. Alhamdulillah boleh je faham dorang cakap ape. Best! :)

Living here, lagi lah. Kadang-kadang terasa keseorangan je. Kadang-kadang kena pandai entertain diri sendiri. Itu yang buat itu buat ini. Masak lah, apa lah. Seronok sebenarnya bila cuba fill the lonely time dengan something yang baru. Lama-lama, duduk sini dah rasa best. Kenal ramai orang, pergi merata.

We are continuously learning.

Sejak September, sehingga lah saya jangka hari saya pulang ke Malaysia nanti, saya rasakan hari-hari adalah hari baru buat saya. Hari yang, mungkin tahun hadapan saya dah lebih bersedia. Dari segi masa, dari segi cuaca, dari segi kewangan. Tahun ini, tahu experiment. Tahun depan, jadikan tahun pertama ini sebagai satu contoh supaya segala kesilapan tak berlaku lagi. InsyaAllah.

Panjang pulak penulisan spontan ni. Dah, harap2 kalau ada masa lagi kita jumpa lepas exam last 8th June untuk berbicara lebih lanjut tentang hal ini. cecewah. Terima kasih kerana sudi baca (kalau baca). hehe

Akhir kata, we learn it the hard way. Tak yah sangka kan semua nya senang, dan tidak juga semuanya susah. Allah berikan saya seimbang. pungpangpungpang geram dengan engineering, tapi saya selalu berjaya dalam study saya (Alhamdulillah). Contohnye, design saya berjaya tahan beban 18kg tanpa pecah! Design yang Allah ilhamkan pada saya dan juga bantuan kawan2. Itu petanda baik kan? Allah selalu buat saya rasa I AM A LUCKY PERSON :) Alhamdulillah~

p/s: Tadi hantar report terakhir sem ni, so that's the end of my spring sem! 4 hari lagi exam~ doakan saya. Will update more about exam time rest from study nanti. toodles!

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Thursday's Rambles

2011-05-12T14:06:00.001+01:00

Salam.

It has been quite a while now since I last write something spontaneous. At this moment, I am still on my bed (1:04pm), just woke up an hour ago! Sharp at 12pm, when my last Materials Processing lecture ended. Yes, I woke up late that I skipped the lecture -.- I slept late last night, mind you. I really wanted to go, it kills me for feeling guilty for not going to the lecture (even if its a movie-time lecture).

Why sleep so late, you may ask. It's like this. Yesterday might be the most tiring day ever. Woke up in the morning, went to lecture at 12pm and went back home. Cooked for 2 days meals, and studied. Continued with usrah at 7pm-9pm. At 10pm, I went to the IC coz we had discussions to attempt the Dynamics online quiz. This moment, I feel blessed that I have a very supporting circle of friends. haha :)

Courtesy: Syeda Exaty's iPhone.

But what I dislike was, we ended up going back home late -.- Normally, I would sleep at 11-ish am and wake up early. So, went back at 1.30am with few other guys (feeling safe this time for having them to teman me walk in the dark) and perform isyak prayer. I was really really tired at that moment, but subuh prayer is just in an hour time (2.40am). So I waited for it, and did some tutorials on Dynamics -.- I bet my brain was hardly work at that moment.

In the end, I slept at almost 4am -.- and here I am now.

I feel bad.

I should wake up from my comfy bed and warm blanket. I should have shower and perform Zuhur prayer. I should go have my 'brunch' and study~

Exams in 9 days.

I'll try not to fill my blog with my emotions and stresses for the exam. While I am in deep frustration towards my design report, I will try to only spam my private place to be emotional (not to be shared, obviously).

Wish me luck. so many things to study, yet so little time.

p/s: Just a little reminder to all of you. If you're working in a team, please don't be selfish. Please be responsible and wise.

egards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

Fluffy yummy

2011-05-09T13:37:00.001+01:00

Salam.

So today I made another recording of the sky and clouds using my phone again. This time, it was a bit longer than the previous one. I set the camera and all, started recording and went to class at 8.50am. I just left it there and when I came back at about almost 11am, I made my first Tiramisu ever until 12pm (which I will update soon!). When I looked back at the phone, the recording has already stopped. It was 2.75hours of recording, great job Hazel Baby! :)

So I did some editing again, and I was out of idea of what music to put. So I just ignore it. Hence the video will seems boring. haha. When I left my room for class, the sky was a bit dark, grey and cloudy. But you can see later on the sky turns to blue, which is so lovely.

If you actually stare at the sky, the clouds are really constantly moving. That's what I like about my life here. The clouds are moving really fast. Sometimes I would just sit on my chair, near my window, and stare at the beautiful scenery. Subhanallah right? Why don't you try to make your own version? It would be great sometimes to see how wonderful Allah's creation is. Have fun :)

So.. there you go, my Monday in Sheffield :)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

The Sky from My Window :)

2011-05-08T20:05:00.001+01:00

Salam.

So today was so sunny and lovely. The clouds were nice and fluffy. I thought why not I record it. Yes, this is a video, not a time-lapse photography, not just yet :p To make a time-lapse photography, I need a lot of equipments which I don't have. So I took out my Hazel Sony Ericsson Phone Camera, and let it stand just near my window and started recording. While studying, I didn't realize that it was already 1 hour plus. So I stopped recording and did some editing. So, poof! Tadaa~ A nice way to capture the moving clouds. You can do this too using windows movie maker :)

Well, that's it for today. I'm recording another video to see if I can create wonders. haha! :p Should stop writing now and get studying done! :) Take care lovelies ♥

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)