Salam.
Chin up my dear sister, everything is gonna be fine *hugs* :)
There will always be a time in life, where people will stop doing what they're doing and think, 'am I actually doing the right thing in my life? Did I make the right decision?'
and that always happen to me, dear sister :)
I've always wondering if what I have now will only bring tears instead of joy, if this will only lasts when I am a student and not anymore in my adulthood life. I am scared to think what's waiting for me, coz only He knows.
"It's always too early to say that 'I'M QUITTING'. and it should never cross in your mind in the first place." That's what I always think.
The reality is, we're not perfect. We have emotions. We have passions and we have ambitions. But, we have HIM for sure. So look up for Him when you feel down. Surround yourself with positive people. If there's one thing that could make you feel bad, then leave it. Leave it even though you'll feel all alone. Don't worry, Allah is there for you, remember? :)
Always think about what you have rather than what you don't have. Allah gave you an easy path to be in where you are now. So be grateful and always welcome challenges :)
When I really step into the real world of engineering, I was clueless. I never like anything about machine, I never like anything about materials. What I knew back then was only how to decorate a house, how to sketch, draw and colour, how to organize your home, and how to design a house plan. I was so passionate about doing this thing. and in a blink, everything was gone and I felt like I was in a total opposite world. The world seems odd to me, and I felt like I was a stranger. It was the downside of life.
But hey, should we just stop and blame Him? Not right?
You have your friends to help you, you have your family who believes in you, and most importantly, although I could not help you a lot coz my brain has become an engineer's brain in total, but I'll be there for you to help you go through this.
Ummi must be really proud of you now, you know? She told me one day, "Ummi selalu teringin nak ada anak seorang arkitek".
When I think about it again, I would cry coz I could not make her dreams come true. But now I know, you are now there to make her happy, to make her proud of you :)
So when you're feeling down, always think about Baba and Ummi who are already proud of you, of your improvements, of your capabilities and of yourself! Make them your inspirations. Always imagine them when you feel like quitting. Always always look up for them when you feel like you don't have anything. They have done a lot for us, so it's time for us to give them the happiness that they should get. We might not wealthy in money, but we have the happiness. So make full use of it, ok dear sister? :)
and to me, I BELIEVE IN YOU. and I promise, when I got back in summer, or anytime in the future, I'll help you. I'll help you to face this, to do your works, to make you a stronger person. This might be bias to Akak, Wawa, Amal and Adik, but you know you're doing something I would love to help anytime, so dont worry, Kak Ieda is here :)
Lastly, believe in yourself. Life is hard, you see. So it's normal to feel exhausted and to feel like the world is against you. But Allah is there for you. Recite the Al-Quran when you feel alone, and perhaps every single day. It will make you stronger and calmer to face the challenges. Be ready to face whatever that might come along the way, and never stop praying for Allah to ease your way.
InsyaAllah, everything is gonna be fine.
Love you a lot H,
Kak Ieda :)
Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)
