another rambling.

Salam.

I woke up this morning by a call from my aunt. My uncle isn't so well, and today he has been discharged from the hospital. Hope he's well enough and recover soon. Really look forward to see a lively him, as he usually is.

After a week at home, I never wanted for today to come. I don't wanna go back to KL eventhough yes, it is the time of year where all FETSO kids from the three UniKL will be reunited after being separated - by the IELTS exam at the British Council of course ;)

yeap, we got a lot of agendas to do right after the exam. Still thinking whether to bring the camera or not as I will travel by bus alone, again. You know, the camera is heavy ok! and I got my laptops and my IELTS material i printed at home (a lot of them, dont know whether I will read them all or not). argh. peduli la. small matter.

When will I finally have someone to be my partner for travelling? please handsome please? ;p

OK, i gotta take my shower and start packing up my stuff. Tomorrow I have to take the LRT and go to UniKL to send my assignments (kantoi lambat hantar). alamak! I forgot to give my dad the Sheffield letter to be faxed this afternoon. adey. I have to go to the restaurant and do my previous routine as a worker there i seem ; faxing menus. lol.

next entry MAYBE will be posted from KL if i really have time. seems my bad english and I am not very familiar with all the formats, will get me to eat the dictionaries and go through all the formats before I take the exam this saturday.

Like he said ; tak amik IELTS tak boleh fly!

(T____T) okai, like I said. I'll fight! I am not gonna waste my RM500 to repeat this test. surely.

gonna miss Ipoh. isk isk isk. pang! mengade la kau syaheeda! sampai selasa je pon. HIHIHIHI. bye2. take care. wish me luck. salam ;)

p/s: still can't stop myself from writing a lengthy entry. lol.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

September 2010, come quick!

Salam.

It was a blissful spending day. On the very First day of December ;)

Went out with my sisters, my sister's friend and cousins. I spent like a MOM to them already. have to treat them well, and it was very pleasing. I feel great eventhough I spent most of my money for them. It's ok. MARA baru masukkan duit. hahahaha. great day anyway. Happy! ;)

Bought those top two books for me. Hopefully I can finish it up! Well I am not really into reading, that's why I have a very bad English, and very low knowledge level, seriously :)

As we reached home, I got this letter. Well actually this is the second letter from Uni of Sheffield. and yes, stated there : 27 SEPTEMBER 2010. I'll start my level 2 (third semester) in MEng in Mechanical Engineering. The 17 top students will be selected and I am gonna make sure I am among those 17 lucky kiddos :)

Yeap! September 2010 come quick! Can't wait! ;)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

my pounding heart

Salam.

I think I got a problem. and yes, it is a stupid problem.

Give me any hard or easy questions or tasks,

I would probably fail to score the easy one.

I would probably think the harder one is easier.

ridiculous, isn't it?

But seriously, I started to detect my weakness in this since I was Form 5 where :

1. I couldn't do SETS any better compare to scoring full marks in DIFFERENTIATION.
2. I sux at ARITHMATIC PROGRESSION and STATISTICS while I score very well in VECTOR and INTEGRATION.
3. I refused to do LINEAR PROGRAMMING but I do prefer INDICES.

and now I don't really know how to change this. It is not that I don't struggle to master the topics but I just couldn't do it. pitiful enough I think.

well people, now I am facing the same things for IELTS. I could score WRITING TEST, but I couldn't do as good as that in READING TEST. why? :(

its only reading and transferring answer. Its all in the passages but I just couldn't get any better results, EVER! pathetic nyaaaaaaaaa~

hopefully I can do my very very best in the exams this Saturday. please pray for me, I don't wanna look stupid for not scoring reading test. Even kids can score it well. :(

syaheeda yang pelik. sigh.

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

cemburu tanda sayang

Salam.

Let's jot some point here about jealousy:

1. Cemburu tengok gambar mereka dikelilingi ais - Skrg kan winter?
2. Cemburu sebab Encik Doktor kurus, dan saya GEMUK! well, x obes la tapi. Tapi, want some of those fat? arghh! tak kira! I will make u fat, someday! i am a good cook. muahahahha ;))

ok. dah habis pasal cemburu. haih. rindu pula tiba-tiba. haha. I think this 4 years, berapa kali je dapat jumpa Encik Doktor secara berkualiti. hurm. let see. hurmm. not more than 20 kot? err. 4 years ok. sobs. urm. ok. takpe. takpe. the less for now, the more in the future. save for what awaits in the future. save for the best :))

isk isk isk. cepatlah balik dari main futsal wahai Encik Doktor. (He insisted : JANGAN TIDUR AWAL.. janganla tidur awal k?pls tunggu nazer) Ye saya sedang menunggu dengan mata yang berat. Baiklah, saya nak pergi baca buku Reader Digest. ataupun CLEO. tambah sikit vocab saya. hilang sikit ngantuk saya. bye!

enjoy the final day of November 2009 people!

fill it with ibadah and prayers ;)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

I never love my life like I love it now!

Salam.

I wished I could turn back time, but I don't want anymore.

I'll fight to create a fantastic future ;)

As wishing the time would turn back when Ummi and Baba in Terengganu 1990, were waiting for the moment I'll be born into this challenging world, I wished I could change myself. Change better. Having a better life. Be a better person. Be a more successful person.

But I know, Allah has his own reason why He made the time goes forward and never backward. and it made me chasing time, competing with time. Time has challenges me, and it is the time for me to face the challenging journey of life.

Just now, I read the blog of a person I admire most. and suddenly this thing about few names I really adore most pop up! and yes, I have few names in my People I Adore Most List. well, not going to mention them. Just know that, they don't even have any blood relation with me.

I love to see how they love their life. How determine they are in getting what they want. And as if I could talk to them, there's so much things I would want to talk about. They get everything I have ever wished in my whole life and they're living in my dreams. I don't envy them for getting everything that I ever wanted, but I do want to learn how they live life like they did.

However, to think back about the past, there's so much things I would want to change. and yet, I just can't. The lines of words saying "..only if I, only if I..." just kept coming. The experiences I've faced through this 19 years of life have taught me to be the person I am today. If I could, I would want everyone to know me better so that they would never have the chance to judge me without knowing the real me and what I have faced in the past, and what make me MYSELF today.

never love my life like I love it now. I love the way I stand on my own feet to grab some opportunities in this world. I love the way I speak out loud to say things I ever wanted to say. I love the way I tried to cover all the sadness by finding the real happiness in life. I love inspiring people, and I love the way I finally have the chance to inspire people. I love the way I set my goals and the way I fight to make it a reality. I love the way I try to complete my life with things I can't do in the past, but now I finally can ;)

I can't go back to the past, but I do have the strength now to make my future a wonderful, bliss one. and like I said, I'll fight! ;)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)

it's coming!

Salam.

Seriously when people said that the most unbearable pain in life is the pain when we're dying. And give birth come after that. and this is followed by TOOTH PAIN!

at least guys will have to bear only 2 of those. but we the girls have to bear all those three! and yes, i agreed with this. totally.

put aside the first and second point, i am currently fighting the pain in my mouth that made me facing difficulties in swallowing. and the interconnected nerves around that area are torturing me. it hurts! i'm suffering tooth pain.

the final WISDOM TEETH COMING SOON!

tsk tsk tsk! (T___T)

Regards : Syaheeda Mohd Ghazali ;)